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The job of selling bodies

I'm struggling with money right now and I'm doing devotional work. I really didn't like it. Selling my body to someone I met for the first time and getting money... but in order to pay back my debts, I have no choice but to sacrifice myself and work to earn money for my mother's medical expenses, grandmother's nursing care expenses, and living expenses! with
If I had a boyfriend or husband, I definitely wouldn't choose that kind of job, but I abandoned myself because no one loved me anymore. That being said, there was someone I liked, and I wanted to be held only by that person, and I wanted to forgive my body only to that person.
So on my first day at work, I wasn't afraid, but there was a lot of resistance. I cried during the service thinking about someone I liked, and I already regret the path I took for money... but when I got the money, I thought this was the only job I could do now. Is it wrong to sell your body to get money after all? Is it wrong as a human being to buy greed for greed's sake?

4 Zen Responses

It's not like they're committing a crime

Something they do out of necessity to protect their families. As long as a crime isn't committed, I don't feel ashamed.
It may still take some time for my feelings as a woman to be fulfilled, but if I have that ambition, I can always offer a helping hand.
Come to the temple when you have a hard time. That's the subject. You can cry doggy, so sing Namu Myōhō Renge Kyō.

As citizens of the same prefecture.

I think there are various circumstances, but when it comes to cutting your own soul with a job that is so painful that it makes you cry... do you need a set amount of money urgently? Were there circumstances where it had to be in that industry?
I think there are circumstances where it's hard to write.
It's the same prefecture, so if you don't mind, why don't you come and talk while praying?

If possible, do another job

If you only have that job, it can't be helped.
Please be careful not to transfer the disease.
Let's break it up with work.

But always look for other jobs.
I think the water business is still better in terms of feeling, even in a similar industry.

Also, why not discuss the following once.
http://www.ehime-kurashi.net/?page_id=292

Sacrificing yourself for your grandmother or mother seems right and good at first glance, but is that really the case?
The most important thing is yourself, more than anything else. Your happiness is your grandmother's and mother's happiness.
Don't forget that.

It's beautiful to live a strong life.

Hello Suna-san.

It's painful because of manners and customs, isn't it?
Even if it's a shady job called sex work, it's a job recognized by society, so what should you do as long as your income doesn't violate laws such as prostitution.
It's hard to live. But in order to live, we have to work hard no matter how hard we try. I don't think it's possible to call that way of life despicable.

However, high income means there is just that much risk. The water business is also linked to gangsters. Gangsters will call out even more to you so that they can take as much money as possible and keep going. In particular, businesses that sell bodies make the mind unstable. I may proceed with the medication at that time. There are also sex workers who go crazy as hosts in order to distract themselves from the darkness of their hearts. There are also men who prey on women like that.

First, please make your own rules so you don't get carried away by the world of manners and customs.
① Decide the period ② don't get a boyfriend in the sex industry ③ decide how to use/manage your income
Please make a minimum decision.

Next, please discuss your mother's medical expenses, grandmother's nursing expenses, etc. at the administrative welfare office. One way is to get welfare. I will search for a path that will make it even a little lighter.

And be prepared to quit your sex work as soon as possible. It's also important to get a job in your own hands. Please learn work skills in between sex work, search for other jobs, and explore new paths.

After that, you must aim for a path that makes you happy. Love marriage is fine. If you are living your life seriously and vividly, there are bound to be men who love you, including your past. What matters is whether you can live without succumbing to the hardships of life.

There are many hardships in life, but hard work always leads people to happiness. Gassho

※Answer again
Did you fall on welfare? I think many things were pointed out at that time. If you lost due to a high income, the bottom of the story is over. I don't know the details of my debt, so I can't say anything about it, but if the debt is a valid reason, please ask a female welfare counselor to keep it confidential and consult again.