Hello Suna-san.
It's painful because of manners and customs, isn't it?
Even if it's a shady job called sex work, it's a job recognized by society, so what should you do as long as your income doesn't violate laws such as prostitution.
It's hard to live. But in order to live, we have to work hard no matter how hard we try. I don't think it's possible to call that way of life despicable.
However, high income means there is just that much risk. The water business is also linked to gangsters. Gangsters will call out even more to you so that they can take as much money as possible and keep going. In particular, businesses that sell bodies make the mind unstable. I may proceed with the medication at that time. There are also sex workers who go crazy as hosts in order to distract themselves from the darkness of their hearts. There are also men who prey on women like that.
First, please make your own rules so you don't get carried away by the world of manners and customs.
① Decide the period ② don't get a boyfriend in the sex industry ③ decide how to use/manage your income
Please make a minimum decision.
Next, please discuss your mother's medical expenses, grandmother's nursing expenses, etc. at the administrative welfare office. One way is to get welfare. I will search for a path that will make it even a little lighter.
And be prepared to quit your sex work as soon as possible. It's also important to get a job in your own hands. Please learn work skills in between sex work, search for other jobs, and explore new paths.
After that, you must aim for a path that makes you happy. Love marriage is fine. If you are living your life seriously and vividly, there are bound to be men who love you, including your past. What matters is whether you can live without succumbing to the hardships of life.
There are many hardships in life, but hard work always leads people to happiness. Gassho
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Did you fall on welfare? I think many things were pointed out at that time. If you lost due to a high income, the bottom of the story is over. I don't know the details of my debt, so I can't say anything about it, but if the debt is a valid reason, please ask a female welfare counselor to keep it confidential and consult again.