I can't live the life I drew when I was little

　Hello. Job hunting isn't going very well; it's a dent, isn't it?
If you had a dream when you were little, I think that would be great. There are also people who say “I don't have any dreams, past or present.”
Now, when it comes to specific employment, I don't think it's better than “trial and error.” Today's world is something manual, but actual actions are specific, and each one is unique. Honestly speaking, “continuing” is more important than “becoming.”
I wouldn't call it an internship, but it might be better than working part-time or jumping in. It flows until you meet a job you can “keep going.” I think it's easier to do that in this day and age than it used to be.
As for “falling in love with yourself.”
This is also a general theory, but I hold myself on my shoulder and say to myself, “I'm doing well.” Your heart and lungs work to keep you alive. “Thank you, my heart.” They might pull it if people hear it, but I do it from time to time, too. It's a specific way to take care of yourself.

There seems to be a high demand for sushi chefs overseas.
Also, it seems that there is a course where you can learn the basics of being a sushi chef in a pretty short period of time.
That's an example, but it's also a good idea to look up current trends in a wider range of genres.
Also, there are people who go abroad as volunteers or the Japan Overseas Cooperation Volunteers.
Genres that have job offers are genres that are needed by others.
You may also be recognized for being helpful to others.
Being liked by others in love is one of them.
Note, in terms of Buddhism, I think that the worry of pride that makes you worry about your own worth is an unnecessary emotion that causes trouble and suffering.
An enlightened Buddha doesn't care about his own worth.

Ladies and gentlemen

Hi Sai, everyone, Ubun, Usagami sebitanya (Ryukyu/Okinawa dialect)?
※Translation: Hello everyone, have you finished your meal?

Nice to meet you, my name is Kiyori from Okinawa Prefecture.

There were many things I could think of, and I sympathized with them.

Everyone said, “The gap between the ideals I had in mind when I was little and now is so big that I feel a dent in myself.” I really don't think it's someone else's affair (^_^;)

When I was little, my dream was not to be a monk, but to be a racer.

What's more... on a motorcycle (^_^;)

People around me were very opposed, and even with efforts, we were unable to produce results even at domestic competitions, let alone international competitions.

There is such a thing, and like everyone else, “the gap between the ideals I had in mind when I was little and now is so big that it's dented in me”... I am, but since when?

The current position of being a monk is, “Maybe it's my vocation?” I've come to think that.

From old friends, etc., the hand that holds the wheel of a motorcycle only changed to the hand that holds the funeral and memorial service rosary (nenju), so they asked, “What the heck happened in your life?” It is counted as one of the Seven Wonders (^_^;)

In my own way, when I asked why, I remembered words from my teacher such as “vocation and job change,” “My vocation... to find the job I want to become, I change jobs in various ways in my life,” and “My vocation... to master the job I have become, there are various things in life even if I don't change jobs.”

The former is an “ideal I had in mind when I was little,” so in a sense, we changed jobs, and maybe we have come across our current real jobs, including job hunting.

As for the latter, mastering your current actual job may change the job you have become into the job you want to become.

I feel like the feeling that everyone says, “I want to have my own field of expertise, I want to have something special” can be given to us as a reward by continuing.

Everyone, when you're job hunting, you've already taken the first step of becoming an expert, so I hope you can look forward to thankful encounters with companies you have a relationship with in preparation for your vocation.

Chuga, Minasama Niturima City, Shaway Yaruhiyai Beingtu (Ryukyu/Okinawa dialect).
※Translation: I hope today is a happy day for all of you.

While exaggerating, I would like to give you my sincere advice.

Since you're bound by unnecessary distractions (= modern values), you can't forgive your current “self,” and you probably won't fall in love with it in any way.

“There must be something I want to do”
“There is value in being a big presence”
“If you don't have an area of expertise or anything special...”
“It is preferable to be positive”
“Living according to ideals (is) wonderful”
etc etc

Aren't those modern values “distractions” that unknowingly flowed into you (even in your childhood) in the first place?

After all, ideals are probably just “things made of distractions.”

But even if that were the case, I wouldn't be pessimistic. If you were able to notice that, this is because it is what you “notice” that has real value.

Humans can change all the time.
Awareness changes people.

If you realise that you're a “tiny being,” rejoice at it. You have successfully climbed the stairs of human growth.

I wonder if people who have done really great and valuable work in the past, and who had delusional beliefs about themselves, such as “(I) are great,” are really alone.

No matter how, every human being is a “small being.” But that doesn't mean it's not worth it. “Value” is something that is inherent in nature. From the time they were babies who couldn't do anything, they have endless miraculous value for life.

So you don't need to think about “your own value” for now. You should do your best to “do what you can” now without thinking about it (try to put it aside as much as possible).

There is no way that there is a god or Buddha who wants more than that.

Be aware of the preciousness of facing your life-size self and working hard, and struggling even if you don't know where to go (without giving up and drowning), and praise (acknowledge) yourself.

As other monks have said, no matter how tough it is, your heart is beating, and it keeps you alive without stopping breathing.

Even though you have a free heart, wouldn't it be a waste to be bound by boring “distractions” forever?

Sowaka Gassho