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I make mistakes every day at work, and my life is full of failures

I make mistakes every day at work.
I almost never get scolded,
Even if you're careful, you'll make similar mistakes over and over again, and make mistakes you haven't done until now.
Outside of work, I get on the wrong train and make mistakes in the cooking process.
There are many failures in my educational background, work history, and marriage history, and I don't have confidence. Sometimes I'm so frustrated with myself that I can't sleep. Even if you take measures so as not to make mistakes, the number of mistakes will not decrease.
Since I was a kid, I wasn't good at school, so I wasn't able to give presentations or get involved. Even when I became an adult, I couldn't get used to the workplace, couldn't work, and it just bothered many people.
I don't think I'm worried about living. My goal so far is to work at my current company for 5 years. But it can't be helped because it's painful. I couldn't get work mistakes out of my head all weekend, and it was depressing.
I have no friends or lovers, so I have no one to talk to. It's a situation where I can only talk a little bit to my 70-year-old parents, who have been worried until now.
Even though I'm about 40, I feel sorry for myself, and I burst into tears. The people around me don't always forgive me, and I feel that they don't like me inwardly.
What should I do to change my smart and low mental age?

4 Zen Responses

First, let's go to bed without doing anything

I also fail all the time.
But if I make use of it next time, I think that's fine. Life will never be the same again. Our way of life is only the first thing in our lives. So it's natural that things don't go the way you want them to.
Preparation so that improvements can be made is important.

The first thing to do is get in shape. I sleep well. I will sleep until I feel refreshed.
As for me, there was a day during Golden Week that I had no plans for 1 day the other day, so I spent my time purring and even taking a nap. Until then, I noticed that my performance had declined every day due to lack of sleep. So the next day was fresh and refreshed. I realized that sleep is really important.

Then, pick up the places where you've failed in the past and think you'll be careful about next, and write them down.

I'll leave the rest up to you.
Even if I fail next time, I don't know what's next. Repeat until it works. If people around you don't get mad at you, let's spoil them.
You'll fail over and over and over until you can do anything, even in sports.

If 5 years is the goal, let's try 5 years for now.

The more mistakes you make, the more life stories you have (laughs)

Hello Saori.

You're depressed because of all your mistakes at work.
Me too (laughs). I've only made small mistakes.

The big piece of advice is that “failure is the source of success,” so if you fail, you have no choice but to live by reflecting over and over again and making an improvement effort every time you make a mistake. It's been hard for me too, but I'm making that effort.
And if you've made a lot of mistakes, why not use that as a story and post it on SNS? I can do a lot of material, so I won't have a hard time (laughs). It will resonate with everyone, and it may become popular. Speaking of entertainers, Jimmy. My life was full of failures, and I almost got fired from Yoshimoto, but Sanma-chan advised them, “If you make such an interesting, impossible mistake, make it public and laugh,” and then made Jimmy an attendant, making him a top comedian. So failure is also your personality. It can also be a life's work. I was also a small, poor, and empty temple, so I'm posting about my own mistakes and hobbies as an idiot monk. There are great monks, and there are also Sutton Kyon monks like me. Therefore, there were also memorial requests from people who were interested, leading to offerings.

Saori's failure is unique, so please start by posting lots of failure stories on SNS. A positive life is bound to change. Gassho

Saori
They told me about the inside of my painful heart,
Thank you very much.
You've made a lot of mistakes and you're starting to feel uneasy.
I don't know the actual amount of mistakes, but I understand your desire to reduce them.

It is said that the mistake was not recent.
For peace of mind, why don't you receive a specialized approach from psychosomatic medicine, clinical psychologists, public health centers, etc.?
It might seem scary, but all you have to do is answer simple tests and questions.
When it comes to what benefits it has
Even mild symptoms have only been found, and the future direction can be seen.
I need medicine, I don't need it
Psychotherapy is right, I don't need it
You can receive various services,
and so on.

You might think the hurdles are high, but once you take it, I think the sense of security is different.

If you're told, “There's nothing wrong with your mental health, etc.,” then that's reassuring. Next time, it would be nice to think about a different method.

If you know there's no problem
I think it would be nice if Hasunoha's Zoom was also used. If you're unconsciously impatient, your mistakes may increase, and maybe you're just clumsy, or maybe you're only bad at certain things.
There are plenty of ways, so please rely on hasunoha.
I'm trying to resolve it as soon as possible so that I can live like Saori.

An attitude of not giving up on trying to change

Hello. I read your consultation.
My name is Jikai.

If you have honestly faced your own situation up to this point and have put it into words, I think you've already decided to “change” and “live.”
First of all, I felt a deep sense of respect for that figure.

Losing confidence due to daily mistakes, repeated failures even after effort.
It's very painful, isn't it?

No matter how much people around you get angry, the blaming voice within yourself won't calm down, and you won't be able to sleep at night.
If that kind of time continues, my mind will wear out.

In Buddhism, it is explained that “everyone lives by the seed (seed) they were born with.”
In other words, all of your current feelings, reactions, and strengths and weaknesses are “natural to you,” and they're not bad or lacking.

Maybe there is a “suitable environment” or “way to make use of” that you haven't found yet.

For example, people who are not good at detailed work or information processing may save their surroundings through conversation and empathy with people.
Maybe it's just a little bit necessary to get away from this cycle of “continuing to blame myself in ways that aren't suited to me.”

Your sense of self-affirmation doesn't increase right away, but I want you to take time to forgive yourself little by little, saying, “Even with who you are now, just finishing today is enough.”
In Buddhism, it is also called “day by day is ascetic practice.”
What is important to you is not comparing yourself to others, but “were you even a little kinder to yourself than yesterday?”

The goal of “I want to continue at my current company for 5 years” is very admirable.
However, if that becomes enough time to endure, running away to protect one's own life is also a precious choice.

Your life isn't meant to annoy anyone.
The day will surely come when you will become someone's hope just by living.

Since I have my flaws, I also have my strengths.
There are shadows because there is light.
If you don't fit in with the group, it's because there's something about you that the group doesn't have.

Please forgive yourself for one thing, even if it's just for today.
That should definitely be a step forward.

I believe that life is also art.