I would like to express my sincere condolences for your mother's passing away.
I read your post, and the way they snuggled up to the mother until the end and said “thank you” to each other came to mind, and my heart warmed up.
1. The weight of the last word
The mother said, “Thank God, thank you.”
I think those words are proof that my mother was satisfied with her life and left filled with love. No matter how weak they were, they gave me peace of mind just by being present — it is conveyed that they were truly beings to be poured out with unconditional love.
2. I can't believe it was an abrupt break up
Just because they were doing well, it's hard to accept the reality of a sudden break up. However, “being able to stay by my side until the very end” is a relationship that is more important than anything else, and I think it was a big reward for the hardships of long days of nursing.
3. Expressing gratitude
In Buddhism, it is explained that people who die “continue to be close to the hearts of those with deep relationships” even when they leave the body. Therefore, the feeling of putting “thank you” hand in hand and saying “thank you” every day always comes through. I'm sure your mother is also smiling with peace of mind.
4. The way forward
When feelings of loneliness or unbelief rush in, don't try to overcome them by force, just shed tears quietly and mumble your gratitude to your mother in your heart. That in itself becomes a memorial service, and it is a time to prepare the mind.
🌸 Summary
My mother left words of gratitude at the end of her life, even though she wished “I still want to live.” I believe that being able to walk with “thank you” every day with that feeling in your heart will be the most precious memorial service.
Gassho