Attitudes for when you feel frustrated, recovery keywords
This is my first time asking a question. Thank you for your support.
Over the past few years, I've been bothered by the words and actions of my juniors at the company. Even though she's a junior, she's also in her late 30s and a nice adult.
She is a person who feels overly self-conscious, has a strong desire for approval, and has a strong sense that she is a person who can do it.
It is basic to improve oneself by lowering others, and they also have a lot of feelings of dislike for me, and when mistakes are pointed out to me, I get in a very bad mood. Also, words and actions that make people want to be noticed or worried by those around them stand out.
For some reason, I was the only one to be on the same team as her over and over again, and it was a team with only 2 people, and I couldn't leave.
There's no point in listing tough things about her, but I feel that the more I write, the dirtier my heart gets, so I'll leave it around here.
As for me, my mind was gradually cut down and I couldn't stop eating and sleeping... In the meantime, I came across this Hasunoha, and just recently, I made up my mind to change myself.
Before starting school, during lunch, before going to bed... read the words of the Hasunoha monk and Buddha on the internet,
・Anger is the cause of anguish and suffering
・Heart of Mercy
・I will not take bad words
I spend my time repeatedly inputting things like that into my head.
It's been a long time, but this is where the main subject starts m (_ _) m
Since I got into this habit, I felt much easier. I would like to continue this little training from now on.
However, after all, when people unexpectedly say disgust, etc., anger just peeks out on their faces. If I can afford it, I'll dodge them, but anger can also make my heart flutter. And after a while I fall into self-loathing...
“There's no way I can do something overnight that a monk would learn through ascetic practices. I say to myself, “Let's do it steadily again,” but after all, there are times when I feel frustrated.
Do you have recommendations for attitudes at times like this or keywords that are effective for revival? I hope I can borrow your wisdom. If I get some words from the monk, I think I'll be able to work even harder. Thank you for your support.
