Hachi-san, I would like to express my sincere condolences for saying goodbye to my precious young lady. In the midst of indescribable sorrow, we will take the relationship with great care when you have a feeling that you have no place to talk to us.
With the word “karma,” you're blaming yourself for probably committing a crime in a previous life with your daughter. My heart tightens when I think about that feeling. The questions “why my child” and “why am I like this” make us suffer deeply, precisely because we cannot find answers. Because of the depth of that suffering, we may just hastily conclude that “some kind of punishment has been imposed.”
Even with the same words, there are various interpretations and ways of taking them. There are differences between the various sects of Buddhism, and this is also a characteristic of the purpose. Being taught by the Jodo Shinshu sect, I don't think of this as “some kind of punishment.” Nor do I think “the events that befell me were caused by the work of my previous life.” In the first place, events in this world are intricately intertwined with many conditions such as oneself, others, society, and the environment, including things we are unaware of (= innumerable), and each result is born.
There are things that are more important to Hachi-san now than searching for the cause. It's about carefully recalling the days my daughter lived. If it's right after parting ways, it may be difficult, but please start “remembering” your daughter little by little. Please take a look back at what your daughter was happy about, what she enjoyed, and the memories she left behind with the bees.
Hachi-san is by no means alone. A Buddha named Amida Nyorai watches over this helpless sorrow and unanswered suffering itself, and never abandons him, and lives with us. Also, the Buddha called Amida Nyorai is the Buddha who rescues our daughter and us from a world of suffering. If you become a parent, Hachi-san's sadness and sorrow won't suddenly disappear, but a Buddha called Amida Nyorai will show you a path where even Hachi can live with sadness and tenderness.
Everyone at Hasunoha is supporting Hachi-san's future. Also, please feel free to contact us at any time.