It makes life seem like a digestive game

Thank you Riru-sama for your consultation.

Don't just look for fun outside of yourself; try to feel joy within yourself.
Also, life is often boring, and there are many things that don't go well.
There are many things that don't turn out the way you want.
But let's not resist them, or avoid them; just accept them, be compassionate to ourselves, and be grateful for being here and now, and being alive with a calm and calm heart.

If you simply express your gratitude to yourself, your inner sense of joy will respond, and the number of times you smile will increase. Somehow my heart also warms up, and it becomes easier to show kindness to others.
If you do that, the atmosphere around you will change. Your smile and kindness will increase the smiles of those around you. A smile will lead to an improvement.

While muttering “thank you” in your heart, let's mutter while imagining it so that it can be delivered to family, friends, and people around you. If you do it over and over again and continue every day, your friends will surely increase.
I think so.
Gassho ceremony

I was shocked when I heard the phrase “life seems like a digestion game” from a woman who is still 30 years old if she is over 80 years old.
You said, “There are no major inconveniences,” but there is probably no human being as unhealthy as you are now.
Work takes up more than half of my waking hours, so it's a big problem that I don't enjoy that work.
If there is no expectation that the situation will change in the future, you should either take the plunge and ask for a change of placement, or consider changing jobs again.
In doing so, please prioritize fun and satisfaction over having a stable job.
Having few friends and not having a boyfriend is also a big problem.
You said “I'm not good at interpersonal relationships alone,” but please overcome this by making an effort on your own.
Most people, like you, are not good at interpersonal relationships.
Still, if you want to live a happy life, you definitely need friends and a beloved partner you can trust (and maybe your partner is your best friend).
It bothers me that you haven't mentioned a single word about your hobbies.
There are many people in the world who say that hobbies are more important than work.
I myself have a number of hobbies that are more enjoyable than working as a monk.
If you don't have a hobby that excites you, be sure to find one.
Please be aware that you are unhealthy right now, and realize that it is you who can change that.
The playball of your life is yet to come.

　Thank you for your hard work, Riru-san. Please take care of yourself.
Life Digestion Match is a nice phrase. It is truly a miracle that I was able to live without incident. I don't really want to compare people's lives, but after all, there are many people in the world who are in trouble because their home environment, social environment, and national environment are affected by various things. While there are people who live a life where something always happens, you are close to a miracle. I think it's a really blessed environment where I can live my life without incident. I think it's an amazing miracle just to be alive.
Aren't you tired of life where the main character runs into some kind of trouble like in dramas and anime, goes on adventures, worries about relationships, and clashes and fights with people?
I very much yearn for a life like yours. Please live while admiring the fact that it is now a world where you can just live earnestly. After all, trying to force yourself to contribute to society or do something for others requires a certain amount of wisdom and physical strength. Even though it's for people, at the end of the day, it's someone else's matter. That feeling of wanting to do something for people isn't bad at all, but I also think it's a bit presumptuous.
That's all for me.

Buddhism explains that nirvana (nehan: a state of enlightenment where worries have disappeared) is the ultimate peace.
Therefore, Buddhism explains know-how for moving away from worldly values and aiming for enlightenment.
Now that you're in a state where you don't feel much desire for worldly values, this is your chance to move on to Buddhism.
You may be able to see a new life just by looking up Buddhist terms such as the Four Strings, Four Struggles, Eight Shodao, Impermanence, Suffering, and Nothing, the Three Studies of Precepts, Dharma, and Wisdom, Rokuhara Mitsu, and Four Infinity Hearts.
There is a possibility that learning Buddhism will calm your mind and develop compassion for others.
If that happens, you will look like a person with an amazing personality from others, your ability to handle work and housework may increase, and above all, your own worries, suffering, and stress will decrease.
For example, even just being aware that the mind is impermanent, and that thoughts and feelings are transient phenomena that come to mind and disappear moment by moment, may reduce worries and suffering.