hasunoha

What is the true cause of this strange fuzzy feeling?

I'm a railway driver
I often work with juniors (conductors) I hate

The break time is the same, but I basically spend my time separately

It's not every day,
Once in a while I work with that junior I hate

One day, after work, I was changing clothes
bothering?
Like I could hear, “I'm tired!”
I came across a scene where he said it to his partner

If it were my previous self,
“You bastard! Fold it up where you failed
I'll hit you until I can't stand up again”
After thinking about it,
I think I've been waiting for a hand gesture

Strangely enough, I didn't feel that much emotion
No, it's true that there is a feeling of “anger”
That being said...
① Were you really saying this with malice?
(I simply said my own impressions = isn't that an attack on me?)

② The feeling that it's unnecessary
... I have the impression that juniors are half-hearted people who can't be serious or evil
Honestly, it's similar to who I was about 5 years ago
If he also looked back at himself,
I think I can become a more diverse person
(I'm also in the middle of that training...)

③ Which one is worse after all?
To be honest, I think from my first impression I didn't like my juniors
He was a pretty sloppy guy who returned his greeting
“Wouldn't it be depressing to say hello from here?” with
I thought I heard it kindly
I've been jittery since then
(No matter who I am, I have a creed of saying hello myself.)

... I mean, it's strangely stuck in my back tooth
If it were my previous self
“I hate you!” so I was able to kill him quickly, but...

Also, when it comes to having a political struggle with juniors,
I'm also worried that I probably have no chance of winning

Seen from above, which “coma” can I use, “myself” or a “junior”?
When it comes to that, it's around 40:60
I feel like I'm going to lose
(Since juniors are positions that group people under 30)

In the first place, I feel that being able to describe humans as “comas” is strange...

It's very confusing

4 Zen Responses

Isn't it divided within you?

Certainly speaking in a way that sounds like “oh, I'm tired,” rather than saying that I'm tired from work, I feel like I'm saying that it was annoying to work together.

(I'm tired of worrying about juniors I don't like here either. Even so, I try to resolve it within myself. (What is that attitude!) It's also going to be frustrating.

However, strangely enough, the reason why feelings of anger don't spring up that much is probably because you have come to be able to divide it with the attitude of your juniors (because this guy is this kind of guy).

I'm doing my best to do what I can. So, even if the position of a junior is being evaluated, it is not changed to an attitude, and the disgusting guy is arrogant after all. Even if your superiors evaluate your juniors, that doesn't necessarily mean they are great people. So, apart from that, I don't care about juniors.

I think it's more divided within you that let's take a break rather than the effort of having to go out of your way to get angry.

Maybe I'm worrying too much.
I think the juniors wanted people around them to sympathize with their exhaustion.
People around me often say “I'm tired” when I've finished work so that people around me can hear me. At times like that, it's appropriate to say, “I'm stumped too. I want to go home soon and have a drink.” I sympathized by saying something like that, and said, “Why are you tired today. Were there any dangerous customers?” I think it would be better to ask and have a normal conversation.
Since it's a relationship between Ichiren's students riding in the same car, I think having a fun conversation, exchanging information, and sharing information would be a plus for work.
It's a job where you take care of your life during work, so you may not have time to spare, but I think it's okay to relax a bit after work is over.
Also, I think it's fine to be moderate even if you don't like people or dislike them. Everyone has good points and bad points. When it comes to greetings, you should start by thinking that the first one wins. even if there is no reply. In addition to saying hello, don't forget to say thank you when someone does something for you.
A political struggle? Which one can I use? don't worry about that. If you can carry customers safely, you'll get a 100-point maximum score. I'm just doing what I need to do for my customers.
Please keep up the good work.

Laugh at the novel “The Store Manager Is Too Idiot”

There is a novel called “The Store Manager Is Too Idiot.” I listened to it in the audiobook.
The main character who works at a bookstore is dissatisfied with the store manager, seniors and juniors, etc., and conversely, the expectations and enthusiasm for his subordinates seen from the store manager's side, solve the mystery with laughter and tears (?) Yes, miraculous plot twists (?) It's a masterpiece I drew with Ari.
I was struck by the fact that each of the characters, including the main character, had stupid parts, and all of them were facing work and relationships while seriously worrying.
This may actually be the case in any workplace.
It would be nice if the day would come when you can laugh “there are cute places too,” even though you're angry that “your juniors are too stupid.”
Now, Buddhism explains that afflictions such as greed, anger, laziness, and pride cause worry, suffering, and stress.
So, even though all of these worries are my own feelings, there are times when they conflict within myself, and it is a series of self-contradictions in the three businesses of body, mouth, and intention.
There is also a possibility that this kind of worry will lead to confusion.

Please live a fulfilling everyday life

I read it.
I read your fuzzy feelings.
I heard that you were doing trial and error by thinking about whatever that person said. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

You don't like that person's attitude or behavior, do you? So I think they've gone that far and thought about this and got caught up in that person.
If you don't like it, I don't think you need to think about this or spend that much time for that person.
You don't need to spend precious time or energy in your life for that person.
If you work, you'll get tired, so there's no problem saying you're tired.
Leave it alone, go home and make good use of your private time for something else for yourself.
I sincerely pray that you will be able to live a fulfilling life at work and in private every day without being caught up by people you don't like. We wholeheartedly agree