I can't do anything like a human being

　Good evening. I heard about the seminar, but since a university is a place for basic studies, the question of “being able to explain it logically” is around where. So, now you probably don't have much aptitude for academics in general.
Even if it's a part-time job, I wonder if “doing the minimum to get paid” isn't a part-time job like that in the first place?
More than that, aren't you a creative person? It seems that the reason why there are many ideas that are not based on historical materials is that they think so freely.
So I don't think it's a bad choice to take the plunge and go abroad... I don't know if there is a purpose, but without restrictions such as “logically” or “minimalism,” “live anyway.” I think the experience of “living” may shed light on possibilities you are unaware of.
Rather than continuing to stay in an environment that isn't suitable for you, changing your environment is a possibility. However, you can't get the status of “I'm a college graduate,” and it's a world of ability. There are many places that are less secure than Japan, and there are probably dangers that cannot be imagined in Japan.
So that's it. Are you prepared and able to make a fresh start? That's my answer. “We were still half-hearted. You think, “Let's crawl more on the ground,” or “it looks like it's about to jump out. Do you think “the world is big”? Half-hearted work has probably led to current suffering, so I think determination to shake it off is now imminent.
Whichever one you choose, the fact that you look back on yourself here and have a desire to “do something about it” itself is an unmistakable truth, and speaking of Buddhism, it is a spiritual ascetic practice. The way you are trying to prepare yourself is precious.

I read it.
I read about university seminars and things that you are very worried about not being able to do it easily at your part-time job. I don't know the details of you or your surroundings, but I understand your painful feelings and uneasy feelings.
It really conveys how painfully you feel. Seeing reactions from people around you is very painful, isn't it? I think it's reasonable to think that you're not suited.
If you think so, I think one way is to choose a different path. Instead of just stopping in a hurry, I think it's okay to calm down a little more and continue with the present.

Studying at university and working part-time are temporary. After a certain amount of time, it will be over. Then they will choose a new path again. At that time, let's make your own decisions by carefully checking what kind of path you are going to choose and walk in the future.

Not all of them are appropriate; they may or may not fit big or small. That's because it's quite difficult to be able to do everything.

I also work as an office worker, and I thought I wasn't really suited, and now I'm a monk, but it's quite difficult when it comes to whether I'm all suited to being a monk, and I often feel that I'm not suited. Even so, there are things I can do.

I sincerely pray that you will be able to live a fulfilling life by demonstrating your abilities so that you can face the future firmly, carefully examine and choose your own way of life, and that you will be able to demonstrate your abilities and live a fulfilling life. And I will support you from the bottom of my heart. We wholeheartedly agree

I saw it in a news article the other day, and it seems that recently there has been an increase in the number of jobs that even people with developmental disabilities can do by using AI.
For example, we are now in an age where even people with weaknesses such as not being able to remember work procedures, forgetting their schedule, or not being able to read the air can work by compensating for their weaknesses with AI, so the range of work expands.
Therefore, it may be possible for you to reduce mistakes by asking questions and getting advice from AI.

It seems like a pretty lively seminar with presentations and discussions. It makes you feel depressed by the frosty reactions and lots of suggestions from those around you.
However, it's a tough seminar compared to others, isn't it? Also, the amount of individual knowledge about history will also be different, and what you notice in the seminar will be a good hint for writing a graduation thesis. It's also important to try your hand at it.

There is no need to decide on your own evaluation just in the small world of seminars and part-time jobs. When you go out into society, you should draw a direction and future that suits you based on your school days and part-time work experiences. There are also job suitability diagnoses, and let's look forward to the stimulation and growth that can be obtained from the environment where you meet and interact with people. Overseas is also an opportunity to have a broad perspective, isn't it? I'm rooting for you.