How to live after losing my mother

I read it
Say goodbye to your mother in the Pure Land
I know it's in turmoil

I loved my mother so much.

Read a sentence called
I'm so envious and wonderful of Hana, who had a loving mother

I think your mother lived her life as a mother
What is Hana's life
What my mother gave me
Isn't the presence of Hana the wonderful meaning left by her mother
The fact that a mother's love and presence is flowing within me
I hope you can take the time to feel it

I can't do anything
To the mother's life
Please let me put my hands together

Gassho

A sudden break up. Why is it disappearing from my face like this...? Why did you leave me... it's unbearably painful, isn't it?

I read your profile too.
Your mother was also suffering from illness the whole time, wasn't she? Various conflicts and feelings have struck, and they must have worked hard to face them.

You, too, saw such a mother by your side, and even though you wanted to help her, it must have been painful while being swayed around wondering what to do.

Even so, they loved their mother and were able to live together up to this point hoping that it would make them happy. That's why I'm so scared and unbearable that I'm sad, painful, and wondering how I should live from now on.

At the end of the day, nobody knows. Even though we live together, we don't know when and when life is. At that moment, even though I wanted to be by my side, I couldn't do anything...

In Buddhism, they preach “one life, one death, one's death, one's own life, and one's own death.” They came into this world alone and left alone.”
They tell me that it is a precious yet ephemeral life that cannot be replaced by anyone.
That's why we learn to live every moment to the fullest, valuing encounters and relationships with people.

The Buddha sees how humans live. They have formed a relationship with the Buddha and are preparing a world where we will be saved beyond life in this world.

I'm sure your mother was also prepared for her own life and her own life.
Also, the Buddha probably accompanied her until the end of her life by her side.

By having support to live in the present, you can overcome this sadness.
Please think that the Buddha will be by your side, too. At times like this, let's rely on the Buddha and put our hands together.

I also lost an important person, was supported by the Buddha, and have lived up to this point.

I hold a bereaved family meeting every month in Osaka. Your unspeakable feelings will also be carefully heard.
You can always count on me.

Gassho

I read it.
I read that your mother passed away and you are deeply saddened, hurt, and distressed. I don't know the details about you or your mother, but I sincerely understand your painful feelings and questions.
Are you wondering how you should know in order to live from now on?
Why did your mother choose her own death? Why do you have to live with that scar on your back? You're having a hard time not being able to find the answer to that question, aren't you?
I don't know the mother's situation or feelings, but her mother may have had various things, or she may have been forced into a very difficult situation for her. I imagine there are various reasons for this.
Also, I think there are various encounters and reasons why you have to live with such hurt and feelings.
Please try talking about your feelings here too without holding on to yourself. Or why don't you let go of your mind at various sharing meetings, etc.
https://inochinohi-kansai.com/
https://www.kyoto-jsc.jp/
Please try putting your feelings for your mother into words little by little, or as you listen to the thoughts of various people, look at your questions and find answers little by little while sharing them with everyone, and heal your heartbreak.
I'm sure your heart will be healed as you share your thoughts.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha, gods, and ancestors that the mother will be saved from any hesitation or suffering so that the mother will feel at ease. Shishin Gassho Nanmu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu

Also, I sincerely pray to the Buddha, gods, and ancestors so that you can cherish your relationship with your mother and live every day peacefully little by little while being watched over by your mother. We wholeheartedly agree

Thank you, Hana, for your consultation.

It's natural that you can't sort through your feelings.
That happens to everyone when a loved one dies.
So don't rush to sort things out or look for reasons.
In the midst of sorrow, please focus on healing yourself first.
Let's start by doing something that calms your mind, makes you feel at ease, and that you can feel safe.

Also, it is important not to define it as “a life lived with wounds.”
Wounds heal, and they heal.

Furthermore, we will eventually be able to meet again.
Your mother is by your side even though you can't see it.
Eventually, as an ancestor, they will demonstrate their power to protect you.

I have one request. You don't have to hurry to sort out your feelings,
Please connect with experts who heal sorrow, such as grief care.
You can be a monk, or you can be a therapist.
Online is fine, so I want you to have a place where you can express your feelings.
It doesn't matter if it's a bereaved family meeting.
Please gather a little courage and connect.
It can also prevent feelings of loneliness, and can reduce emotional turbulence such as depression.
Then, by repeatedly expressing your feelings, you will be able to sort out your mind.
Each person takes a different period of time to be healed, and there are people who take a long time,
By connecting with people, you will always be healed, so please keep that in mind.
Please refer to it.
One bow