I can't quit

I am doing volunteer work. I told them that I wanted to quit when I became a student when I became a member of society, but they didn't let me quit.
Actually, the reason for becoming a member of society is unfounded, and there were several hurtful remarks in the words of the person above the volunteer, and to be honest, I can't stand it anymore, so I want to quit. However, there is no way to tell them an honest reason, and they say, “I want to concentrate on my work, so I want to stay away until I calm down,” but they are stopped in the direction of making them quit. When I said, “I'm going to take over,” I was asked to take over at a level where I couldn't do it at all. I'm sorry for the various words and actions in the past that gave me a glimpse of this kind of thing, but the truth is that I really can't stand that person anymore.
However, the other participants in this volunteer are all wonderful people, and I love others. That's why I wanted to quit peacefully by saying “I'm going to become a member of society...”, but things didn't go well and I'm at a loss.
As I wrote in my profile, I have trouble sleeping. Recently, for 1 or 2 weeks, I haven't been able to sleep for about 4 to 5 hours after getting into my futon because I'm worried that they won't let me quit right away. It is often as it is in the morning. I think I wouldn't have to worry so much about that person alone, but it makes me think. I also think I really don't like that person. I'm always worried about that during the day, and recently my appetite has decreased slightly. There are times when I think about what to do if I have to go to the hospital again. I'd like to talk to someone.
I became a member of society and said, “I'm busy, so I can't do it.” That said, while wondering if fading out is realistic, I want to leave as soon as possible. I feel like it's too painful to be in one corner of my head like this.
There's no organization, and I'm uneasy about whether I've been able to communicate the situation well, but I'd be happy if you could give me some words. Please, thank you for your support.

4 Zen Responses

Make a courageous decision to “protect yourself” in order not to destroy yourself.

Nice to meet you. It's called the monk's hearing method.
I read it. I would like to express my deepest sympathy for the suffering that continued sleepless nights.

In Buddhism, acts like volunteering are called “donations (donations),” but originally, they are not forced to do it; they do it as one's own pleasure. There is no reason why you have to keep on cutting your mind and body and getting sick, even if you look at it from the eyes of the Buddha.

That “superior” request is an unreasonable obsession to hold you back, and there is no need to take it seriously. Even for handover, it's enough to leave a memo to the extent possible. If you're asked to take over a “level you can't do at all,” it's a matter of your opponent's ability, and it's not your responsibility. So don't worry about it and ignore it.

Leaving this place is not an “run away.” It's a courageous decision to “protect myself” in order not to destroy myself any further. Instead of fading out, I think it's better to leave a minimum “handover memo,” leave once and for all, and break off the relationship.

You may have feelings for other wonderful people, but please put your own life and health first for now. It's definitely not irresponsible to say “I'm busy” and break off contact. We are working hard so that you can regain a good night's sleep as soon as possible and take a step forward as a member of society with a radiant feeling. Please take care of yourself the most.

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Engiji Temple Shakujo

There is no authority to not let them quit. Tell them your intentions and don't go.

It's compulsory, isn't it? What kind of volunteer is it, what kind of organization is it, is there a shortage of manpower, and are you in charge of the position? I also feel like there's no freedom without permission from above.

Can't we rely on other members to help us?
Also, I think it's a good idea to clearly tell them, “I'm volunteering, and I've told them my intention to quit before, so I'm quitting on the end of the month,” and I think it's okay not to go.

There's no authority to not let them quit, so you should set a break.

Refusing is also part of work

Thank you for your question.
I'm under a lot of mental stress, so I need a day off. And if you're about to get a job and start working, it would be better to quit volunteering for a while in order to get used to work and a new life. This is obvious no matter who sees it.
You don't need to think it's irresponsible. When it comes to handover, if there are matters that your superiors or colleagues don't know, you only need to record that much and send or hand them over to your superiors. There is no need to raise a successor. Refrain from making more requests than necessary.
When I go out into society, I run into situations where capacity is over and I should refuse even at work etc. Please do your best by thinking of it as an exercise to say no once and for all at such times. Think of it as refusing your first job as a member of society.

This is a human rights violation, let's talk about it promptly

I read it.
You're so hurt by that person's remarks that you can't stand it anymore and you want to quit volunteering. I don't know the details about you, that person, or the people around you, but I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
Volunteering is of course volunteering, so you are completely free not to participate or continue your activities. The choice is yours.
You have absolutely no right to prevent that person from quitting you. What that person is saying or doing to you is a human rights violation. What that person is doing to you is harassment, and it is an illegal act.
If you want to quit, you can just say you want to quit, and if that person forces you, there's no need to refuse at all.

In fact, you are no longer able to get enough sleep due to that person's statements or coercion, and you are no longer able to eat, so you are clearly being harmed. So that person is the perpetrator.
If that person forces you, I think it's okay to consult with the police station or the Legal Affairs Bureau and sue it as a human rights violation.

And that person should be firmly sanctioned. That person should deeply reflect on their actions and apologize to you, and promise you they won't do the same thing.

If possible, I think it's okay to share your suffering with other members of the volunteer organization.

In any case, you can leave now and quit volunteering at all.

I sincerely pray that you can live with peace of mind every day without being subject to such human rights violations, and that you can respect each other with your loved ones and live a compassionate and healthy life.

And I sincerely regret that person's own human rights violations, sincerely apologize to you, and sincerely pray that they will never commit the same mistake again.

And I will support you from the bottom of my heart. We wholeheartedly agree

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