Valentines

5 boxes too! That's amazing. It would have been nice if they opened a box or so and ate it. If he was happy to eat it, it would be worth trying so hard and staying up late at night. It makes me feel like I'm not being rewarded.

As the same woman, I feel your tearful efforts and love for him. But above all else, I want that feeling to reach him.

As was the case at Christmas, there's a slight difference between his quiet joy and your expectations for him. “I took the trouble to make it, so eat about one. I wonder if it's okay to say “That's kindness” on the spot.
Let him know about how you feel sad, too.

There are a certain number of people in the world who are not good at eating homemade dishes from amateurs.
There are also people who say they can eat sushi made by sushi chefs with their bare hands, but they can't eat rice balls held by volunteer aunts.
So isn't it possible that your boyfriend doesn't want to eat the chocolate you made either?
Of course, even if that is the case, I think that putting up with eating is the highest level of kindness, but there is also a possibility that his kindness is that he didn't dare say “I don't want to eat.”
Either way, it would have been a refreshing story if they said “try it” on the spot, so from now on, I think communicating with your boyfriend with real intentions will be effective for deepening the relationship between the two.
Of course, there is also a possibility that he doesn't want to have such a deep relationship with you, but then that is a relationship that will eventually break down.
It might be better for both of them to say what you want to say early.

I read it.
You worked hard while you were busy making chocolate and gave it to him as a present. However, he wasn't feeling well and wouldn't eat the chocolate you made. I can tell you that you are feeling very sad. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I wonder if he wasn't feeling very well; it's not easy to understand, but if it were with you, I would have gone out of my way to make it, so I wanted him to eat even a little bit. I think it's only natural that you are so sad and disappointed.
I think it's okay to talk to him about your feelings the next time he recovers. I think it's okay to honestly talk to him without putting up with your sad and painful feelings.
Since you're human, you may feel good or bad, and there may be times when you don't feel like that, but I think your feelings can also be respected.
I sincerely pray that your feelings will be conveyed firmly to him, that he will accept your feelings, that you and he will continue to sincerely care for and respect each other, and that we can live each day well and live a happy and healthy life together. And I wholeheartedly support you and him. We wholeheartedly agree

First, your feelings are very natural.

I spent time making it until I stayed up late at night. I went on a date feeling sleepy. That effort and feeling didn't come back in the form I expected, so I felt lonely. “A little bit is enough, so I wanted them to eat it happily on the spot,” which is also a confirmation of love, isn't it?

However, let's shift our perspective just a little bit here.

He “said thank you,” “I wasn't feeling well,” and “my stomach was full.” This is also true. I think there is a high possibility that his reaction was “I can't afford it right now” rather than “no love.” When you're sleepy or unwell, people become less able to express their emotions. You expected “Wow! I want to eat it right away!” Maybe I just didn't get that tension.

And one more important thing. You made chocolate. There's already value there. How your opponent responds doesn't determine the value of your effort. “You usually eat it, right?” The standard is your “ideal response.” But maybe he's the one who takes it at his own pace.

The reason I'm worried about not being thrown away is because I have a feeling that “I want to be cherished.” That in itself is very healthy. However, when that anxiety grows too much, I want to “test” his love.

If possible, why not try telling them this lightly the next time you meet them. “I was happy if they ate just a little bit on the spot.” Don't blame me, just tell the facts that made me feel lonely. This is communication that improves relationships.

Love is a balance between “expectations” and “reality.” This incident isn't proof that he doesn't care about you. It's just that he still doesn't know enough about what kind of reaction you would be happy with.

Your chocolate really is love. That value won't go away, even if he doesn't eat right now. Please take care of yourself.