I can't talk to anyone, so I want you to listen
I don't have much time to spare, and I'm very sorry for the long random sentences.
Thank you for taking the time to look through.
[me]
Living overseas, mid-30s, single (divorced, no children, pets are children)
[Worries]
Family illnesses
My life
[Status]
・Family illness discovered in 2024, surgery (returned to Japan several times for support)
・Condition changes and treatment will begin in 2025
・Situations where family mental and physical support may be necessary as of 2026
・Since we are physically separated, we communicate every day
・I was invited last year, but it was a bit troublesome during my stay and I felt sorry, and after returning to Japan, my condition changed and treatment began
[The reason I haven't returned to Japan until now]
・Continuing to work here = deciding that it is best to provide financial support through remittance
・My family is looking forward to coming to play = protect the target place
・Pets = for me I don't want to burden my kids/my only family here
・Folding up your life = the possibility of making your family feel ashamed
[True intention]
・Folding up my current life and going home = making my family aware of life/I may be afraid to face my family's life
・I don't want to act like I'm going home in a hurry = saying there won't be long ahead
・More than half of my life overseas
・Returning to Japan = losing my eligibility to stay here = making my family feel responsible + I thought returning to Japan would be a little further away
・If things went well without getting divorced, I wouldn't have worried about my family
・Having my own family made me feel safe, and I may have been able to move more flexibly in the past year
・I don't have any grandchildren
[Bring Your Pet Home Go Home Only Yourself]
・The period is unknown
・There is no one I can trust and ask
・The burden of movement and environmental change
・Lowest load = complete return to Japan
[I don't know what to do]
・No matter which one you choose, it will put a burden on someone, and you'll probably regret any of them
・I chose it on the premise of healing/living → the childish feeling that I'm starting to think about what if now
・Even though it was a time like this, my parents took over from my parents, and the childhood trauma I felt interferes with my thoughts
・What is filial piety
・Japanese friends = it's nice to be able to choose where they are, this friend = has no one to show their true self, they say they are solid and don't know how to spoil them, and they behave well, so it's extra painful
・The number of times families refrain and hide their weaknesses has increased
・It's useful if you go home hungry and support your surroundings, but it's pathetic because there are only good reasons
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