hasunoha

I can't talk to anyone, so I want you to listen

I don't have much time to spare, and I'm very sorry for the long random sentences.
Thank you for taking the time to look through.

[me]
Living overseas, mid-30s, single (divorced, no children, pets are children)

[Worries]
Family illnesses
My life

[Status]
・Family illness discovered in 2024, surgery (returned to Japan several times for support)
・Condition changes and treatment will begin in 2025
・Situations where family mental and physical support may be necessary as of 2026

・Since we are physically separated, we communicate every day
・I was invited last year, but it was a bit troublesome during my stay and I felt sorry, and after returning to Japan, my condition changed and treatment began

[The reason I haven't returned to Japan until now]
・Continuing to work here = deciding that it is best to provide financial support through remittance
・My family is looking forward to coming to play = protect the target place
・Pets = for me I don't want to burden my kids/my only family here
・Folding up your life = the possibility of making your family feel ashamed

[True intention]
・Folding up my current life and going home = making my family aware of life/I may be afraid to face my family's life
・I don't want to act like I'm going home in a hurry = saying there won't be long ahead
・More than half of my life overseas
・Returning to Japan = losing my eligibility to stay here = making my family feel responsible + I thought returning to Japan would be a little further away

・If things went well without getting divorced, I wouldn't have worried about my family
・Having my own family made me feel safe, and I may have been able to move more flexibly in the past year
・I don't have any grandchildren

[Bring Your Pet Home Go Home Only Yourself]
・The period is unknown
・There is no one I can trust and ask
・The burden of movement and environmental change
・Lowest load = complete return to Japan

[I don't know what to do]
・No matter which one you choose, it will put a burden on someone, and you'll probably regret any of them
・I chose it on the premise of healing/living → the childish feeling that I'm starting to think about what if now
・Even though it was a time like this, my parents took over from my parents, and the childhood trauma I felt interferes with my thoughts
・What is filial piety
・Japanese friends = it's nice to be able to choose where they are, this friend = has no one to show their true self, they say they are solid and don't know how to spoil them, and they behave well, so it's extra painful
・The number of times families refrain and hide their weaknesses has increased
・It's useful if you go home hungry and support your surroundings, but it's pathetic because there are only good reasons

I would appreciate your thoughts and comments.
We look forward to working with you.

4 Zen Responses

Let's look back calmly

I read it.
I read that you are very lost due to various things. I don't know the details about you or everyone, but it really conveys that you are very worried and lost. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I think it's quite difficult to make a decision when you think about your family and your family that is a pet.
No matter what decisions you make and take action, you'll regret it. It would be quite difficult to find an answer that completely satisfies everything, and even if there were, I think it would be difficult to perfect it.
There are twists and turns in any kind of life, and there is no life without regrets.
If so, please calm down and carefully consider what you would like to prioritize, what is the thing you should do now, and what is the thing you regret the least.
Please try to calm your mind slowly, face yourself firmly, and simulate while thinking calmly.
that's because if you hurry, you'll ruin the situation.
Never be in a hurry, and never let yourself be carried away only by temporary emotions.

I sincerely pray that you will be able to truly cherish your own life and live a truly fulfilling life so that you can face each other firmly and calmly make decisions for your future and for your desired life.
And I wholeheartedly support you. We wholeheartedly agree

Either one is fine. because...

Good evening. I also read the questions and profiles.
Perhaps in the past, they were burdened with expectations from family and close people, and they made efforts to meet them. and “Let's walk our own way!” I made up my mind, dealt with various difficulties with my own strength, and was able to gain a foothold.
Among them, “should I return to Japan for my family?”... I read it as standing in the pain of “throwing one away and taking the other.”
I think you're putting the balance between what you've built and your family's lives, but the first thing I want to say is that “returning home is not abandoning your achievements,” and “not returning home is different from disrespecting your family.”
Every human being lives in many relationships. The relationships you have built overseas now and the relationships you have with your parents are both important. That doesn't change no matter where you are. Even if they stayed, “that kid met someone so important”... this is something I'm proud of as a parent. Go back and say, “That person built some things on his own, but he put aside his family for now”... it's not something to be criticized.
And what is important is that “the current (return/stay) decision will not stay the same for the rest of your life.” While making various choices, “Looking back on it later, it wasn't a straight line, but there were things I've always cherished”... rather, I think it will be a life full of richness that is not a straight line.
You've been thinking a lot already. The phrase “no matter which one you choose, you'll put a burden on someone, and you'll probably regret any of them” is probably true. Moreover, no matter what actions anyone does. Of course, so am I. But I can still walk. “Thank you if you put a burden on me. If I regret it, I will live with it. Regret is a compass that illuminates one's path.” You can continue your life this way.
I'm not saying “I should go back” or “I should stay.” Your life is yours, and whichever you choose, it's an expression of your honesty. But at the same time, what I want to say out loud is... “You don't have to stay that way for the rest of your life.” It's fine. You have a sense of responsibility, kindness, and honesty.

Put your happiness first

The answer may be a bit harsh, but please bear with us.
You think it's best to live for your own happiness.
You don't need to worry about a sick family member.
You've probably lived like that until now.
I thought it would be best to send money from overseas to provide financial support; my family is looking forward to coming to my place to play, and it is said that it makes sense to protect the target location, but that's your idea, and your family may not think so.
I'm not going to blame you for that.
Your life is yours alone, so live it as you please.
Your family probably doesn't want you to sacrifice your life for your family.
More than that, I don't feel like you're feeling that your life abroad is inadequate now.
If you think it would be happier for you to return home with your pet and take care of a sick family member, then you should do that.
You don't need to worry about the eyes around you at all.
Filial piety isn't about doing anything just for parents.
There are also cases where doing filial piety itself makes children happy.
If the answer is misplaced, please forgive me.

Why don't you give them peace of mind to connect with their families while leaving it to a Japanese institution

The situation you're in changes every time, doesn't it? Both choices may be necessary, and changes will respond and influence. Even so, rather than regretting that choice, they look forward by making it mean that this is fine.

Also, no matter how big a family is, we can't undertake everything. We have no choice but to do what we can. To that end, it is also important to use various support and services.

family diseases. Physical and mental support. While leaving medical approaches and mental care to Japanese institutions, let's give them the peace of mind of being connected while keeping in touch frequently with their families.

Your way of life is yours. Even if you move all of your life to Japan and are able to support them with dedication, you must build your next life again.

Thinking about that, I think it's a good idea to value the support you can in your current lifestyle. Together, we support everyone. I wish we could set up such an environment.