unsettling

Thank you for sharing the pain in your heart. After going through a major decision called debt consolidation, you're still in the midst of deep regret and anxiety.

Even from a Buddhist point of view, all of us humans are weak, and there is no such thing as a perfect person in this world. So there's no need to keep blaming yourself hard any longer for “I wasn't solid.” The reason it becomes painful to look at old photographs is that the mind is bound by the “past” no matter what.

But what really matters is “now.” As the words spelled “I try to move forward and do my best even if I am like this” and “the kids say they love me,” your child's pure love is the greatest light of all for you. That feeling of looking ahead is really precious and wonderful.

Even if money anxiety surges in again in the future, there is absolutely no need to think that “there is no choice but to die.” People live in this world by relying on and supporting each other. Please consult with the local government where you live as soon as possible and seek public assistance before you are really cornered. It is only when you take good care of yourself and survive that will lead to the happiness of your children. I wholeheartedly support the future steps.

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Engiji Temple Shakujo

I never forget past events or failed experiences, and I sometimes remember or avoid them at some point. This is a question that is often asked by Hasunoha.

For example, I had a difficult experience when I was a student, so I don't want to go to class reunions. I don't want to go back to my hometown, etc.

The experiences and regrets of wanting to do more like this will lead to current habits and lifestyles where people act with care. Changing the way we live also comes from various experiences. It was also from experience that you were able to think about money management. If you don't have any experience, you might be in danger even now. After all, it's “now” through experience.

Let's take it that way. If you look at a photo and remember it, put it away. Also, if you're in trouble with money, this will lead to Hasunoha and remember various supports.

Don't hold it alone. Let's stick to the present and walk through it without regrets.

I read it.
I read that you have anxiety every day, even in previous questions. I don't know the details about you or everyone, but I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I think the situation has changed slightly from before due to debt consolidation, but even so, I think you feel very uneasy.
As I've told you before, let's talk to counselors and staff at the consultation desk of a public institution without embracing your uneasy feelings alone, and let's get them out of you, and actively receive various advice and support.
You are a very important person, and there are many people who really care about you. Your children will also feel that you are very important, so please take care of yourself and take care of yourself for them too.
Be sure to consult with the local government's lifestyle section or child family center about lifestyle, economic matters, and child-rearing, and be sure to receive financial support. Also, why not get public financial support.
It may not be easy to get rid of your anxiety, but please live well with everyone every day while being helped and helped by many people.
I sincerely pray that you and everyone can live every day with peace of mind being helped by many people, and that everyone can be considerate of each other, share various things, and live a happy life. And I wholeheartedly support you and everyone.
Please let us know how you feel again, and we look forward to welcoming you from the bottom of our hearts.