“Will I be rewarded if I live at all?”
Yes, that's right.
Simply because your breathing isn't denied by anyone, and you're taking a big breath without asking for affirmation, you can think that your life, existence, and survival have been completely affirmed by both God and the Buddha. More importantly, don't worry, they are living freely and majestically from the rules of the human world, beyond both affirmation and denial of the human world. Please be free from the rules that humans in the human world have made without permission. I shouldn't have cared about that originally, so that's fine.
“I get involved with strange people, shocking things happen in relationships, and I'm blamed.”
There are strange people, aren't there?
That person was also treated strangely by other strange people, and they are probably falling into a strange mentality.
It's just that those people are full of things in their lives that are shocked or blamed in relationships. People who live at the center of their lives have only their own rules, so they often clash with others. That's why Buddhism says that selfish rules, ego, and selfishness aren't good. If there is a shortage of good bacteria for the mind, humans will get more and more heart disease. It will save you even if you are in a bad situation. It is the Buddha's teaching that it can save even such people.
“I don't do it because I think it's selfish, bad talk, or annoying.”
That's pretty good. It's amazing. It's admirable. Please keep going.
“Free-spirited? Aren't you foolish to do whatever you want to people who are alive?”
Actually, I can't hide my true intentions. I know that I did bad things when I was young, and I actually did bad things myself just trying to affirm myself through you. If you really face it, it caused trouble to the people at the store, and if you did the same thing to yourself, that person would be extremely troubled. So be aware that this is a form of lying to yourself. I'm not being sly. It's weak. He's just a liar.
“I want to affirm this way of life.”
It's fine. It's a great way to live.
Furthermore, let's study this human world.
Oh, all humans care about themselves, so it can be seen that in an attempt to protect themselves, they sometimes act bossy, exaggerate, take mounts, become aggressive, and even lie to themselves to the point where they are stubborn.
Then you will become stronger. You'll be able to guide yourself and others in a good direction.