I don't see any hope in life. Even if you just live without expecting anything, it costs money. Labor for that purpose is necessary, and suffering such as exploitation occurs. If life has no meaning and living is just a loss, wouldn't it be more reasonable to die?
I read it.
You feel that you are being exploited because you have no hope in life and are being forced to work. It makes me think that life doesn't have meaning, is it a loss?
If it's just that kind of pain, they think it would be more reasonable to die. I don't know the details about you, but I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
I don't know what kind of work you are in right now or what kind of treatment you are receiving from the company or people around you, but I can tell you that you are feeling very troubled and painful.
If you don't mind, please tell us a little more about your feelings and condition. You are here to connect with us. Your thoughts have arrived here.
Why don't you share your difficult and difficult life here. You're never alone, are you?
There are probably people who are worried just like you, and I think there are also people who can't find hope.
When I talk about pain and share it with many people, my heart feels lighter, and there are times when I notice different ways of thinking and looking at things.
Please share your thoughts and suffering here.
We look forward to welcoming you.
Are you in an environment where you're just being forced to work? Are you in a situation where you have no fun or friendships outside of work? So do you think they're just alive?
If that's the case, every day is boring and lonely, isn't it? Even if I try hard, I don't feel that it's worthwhile, and even if I want to enjoy the holidays, I don't have enough money.
What are you living for? If you don't have a purpose to live, the repetition of living every day feels empty, doesn't it?
Nevertheless, everyone is probably searching for some purpose in their lives. No one knows if others are fulfilling. However, in order to live, we also need energy to make the most of ourselves. People around you can't give it to you...
There are also many familiar and free places, such as local communities. I also go to the library in my free time. Even without shopping, I sometimes walk around commercial facilities and read regional public relations magazines that you can get for free by sitting on the couch.
I've even found that a park like this was built in a place like this. Local governments are also creating places for regional exchange and relaxation. So why don't you also look at the surroundings of your life? from such a step.
In the case of Buddha, like you, he couldn't find meaning in everyday life, became a monk at age 29, attained enlightenment at age 35, and became Buddha (Buddha, the one who woke up to the truth).
From then on, until he passed away at age 80, he taught teachings to people and raised many disciples.
The Buddha discovered that the cause of worry and suffering was affliction, and explained specific methods, such that when enlightenment is attained, anxiety disappears and worries and suffering disappear, and that even people who have not attained enlightenment can skillfully manipulate their worries and suffering to reduce their worries and suffering.
For example, keeping the Five Commandments (lifestyle practice) and doing samatha meditation (concentration training) and Vipassana meditation (practice of observing phenomena and realizing the truth) are the basics of ascetic practice for understanding.
You can also search for ways to do it on the internet, so if you try it, you may encounter various discoveries and joys.
Also, a belief was born in Buddhism to make it easier to understand, so that even if you don't realize it in this world, you can be enlightened in the next life.
In the Jodo sect and the Jodo Shinshu sect, they believe that they will pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise (an ideal world that is easy to understand) and call them Nembutsu (Namu Amida Buddha) and “Namu Amida Funamu Amidafu.”
So, I think being able to encounter Buddha's teachings in this world and come close to enlightenment (extinction of worries and suffering) in this life and the next is the greatest joy and significance in life.
For now, try meditating.
If you compare meditation to a game, then this mind and body is a game console.
My life as a Buddhist is to be able to play games that anyone can play anytime, anywhere for the rest of my life.
I got a game console that I can play even in my spare time, so I won't be bored for the rest of my life.
appending
If you think about reincarnation on the premise, there is a possibility that the next life will be even more unhappy even if you die prematurely, so let's do what we can do in this world for a better afterlife is a pattern of thought in Buddhism.
During that training process, if you have time to forget your worries, it will be time to forget your worries and suffering.
I hope that meditation will lead to a sense of security that any worries will pass through your mind in seconds.
Everything is painful, so there will be suffering as long as we live, and even in the next life, there will be suffering until we realize it.
So, in terms of Buddhism, it is more reasonable to die after doing Buddhist training rather than dying in a dark cloud.
appending
I don't think it's a waste if you enjoy life like a game without getting attached. (There is a character limit, sorry for one word)
Please forgive me if I'm wrong.
As an office worker, I don't know what kind of work you do, but if you're a normal person, you feel proud and rewarding about your work, and you should be living a fulfilling day, so the content of that job probably doesn't match your wishes.
When I saw people around me or on the internet etc. who made a lot of money from side jobs and were living the lives of so-called “winners,” and when I took on the challenge thinking that I could do it too, the reality wasn't that sweet, and on the contrary, I think I was burdened with debt.
If so, no wonder you're terribly depressed.
However, even if you succeed on the side job, as long as you are obsessed with money and continue to be jealous of the rich, you will not be happy.
If you want to get away from pain, take the plunge and let go of your obsession with money.
I don't know what it is now, but there was a time when young people talked about FIRE as if it were the life they longed for.
I don't think there are any other lives that are so unhappy and ridiculous.
People don't work to live.
We live to work.
There is no meaning in life other than working for someone else and getting genuine happiness through it.
I'm sure you've noticed it from the bottom of your heart.