I'm not a good kid

As far as I've read this far, I felt that you're now being blamed by your “bad self,” and you're so tired that you don't have any strength left to stand up.

You wrote, “The difference between a good child's self and someone who isn't is too bad,” but originally people can't live with just one or the other.

Your kind self, your hurt self, your running away self, and your hard-working self are all in your life.

And the reason it's painful is probably because you've been judging yourself for a long time, saying, “Don't forgive your bad self.”

Reflection is important. But remorse isn't originally a punishment that continues to burn forever.

You wrote, “Remorse is enough.”

Maybe it's not that I don't want to stop reflecting, but that I'm exhausted from continuing to punish.

Then just one thing.

“Living hell? There's no such thing. Because I have a daughter.”

Reading these words, I feel like I could see something important on the contrary.

You're still suffering, and you haven't lost your daughter's presence.

That's a huge thing.

What is needed now is not a few “reincarnations,” but “today may end without judging myself any more.”

What tired people need is not to become a new self, but to rest first.

I think I've been judging alone enough. Gassho

I read it.
I read your painful thoughts. You think you're not a good kid, do you? You're feeling a pain because of the gap between yourself and yourself, where you do bad things. I don't know the details about you, but I can tell you that you are very worried. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.
When I think about myself as making people cry, hurt them, and steal money, it becomes so painful that I want to stop living. Even if you try to be reborn over and over again, it's too painful to be able to do it. You feel like you're in a living hell because of pain. It really conveys that you are suffering so much.
Please tell us about your suffering to the extent that you can even here. Let's share it with us. Also, let's talk to many people about your thoughts and get them to accept it.
I think it's okay to talk about your painful feelings at local child and family support centers and child counseling centers, and let's listen to various advice and ask for support.
Please let out your feelings even a little while many people listen to your suffering and relax.
You are by no means alone; many people will continue to watch over and support you. Look away from that suffering little by little while being supported and protected by so many people; you are by no means in hell.
Let's raise our daughter together while being supported by many people. I'm sure my daughter will be loved and raised by many people. Also, please take good care of yourself and rest your mind and body with respite care in between.
I sincerely pray to the Buddha, God, and your ancestors so that you can live with peace of mind while being supported and helped by many people in the future, that you can raise your daughter together with many people, and that you and your daughter can live every day sincerely and healthily with everyone.
And I wholeheartedly support you and your daughter.

I wonder what happened. It looks like you're stuck. I wonder if this is the time when the symptoms are strong as described in the profile. I'm worried.

My differences are so severe that it's painful, isn't it? There's nothing I can do about blaming you for your actions, but there must have been a reason that led to that action. Of course, for whatever reason, I want to live my life with all my heart, but sometimes it's difficult and I make mistakes.

You are also struggling with who you have been until now, even though you are reflecting on it.

Even if you try to be reborn again and again, you won't be able to do anything.
If you're alone, you'll get stuck. In such a case, let's connect with Hasunoha in this way. “I did this. What should I do?” “How can I change it?” Listen to it every time. Let's think about it together. And so that I can love whatever I am.

Don't you really want to take good care of your life? If that's the case, we want to go out with you too.

I saw your consultation, Nachi.

I have the impression that he is an intelligent person who can look back and analyze his own life and think carefully about himself.

However, the fact that I have quite a gap within myself is being swayed by myself, and I'm exhausted, right?

Also, it's not easy to get rid of the habits and sagas that stick to yourself all of a sudden, right?

I've never directly hurt myself with a blade, but there is a saying.
You also have a calm place, don't you think?

I'm trying my best to be reborn over and over again. First, please praise yourself for making an effort to be reborn.

but... it's too tough, isn't it?

Now, why don't you take a break from that conflict and take a break?

Even for the sake of your precious daughter, it doesn't matter if it's just a little while; how about forgiving your past self.

You can't go back to the past anymore.

Even if it's hard, I have no choice but to live now. If so, let's make myself a little easier

It's Nachi who has gained this much experience and has been worried.

That suffering must have deepened into the depths of human beings.

In order to touch your daughter with a smile, please cherish the present and make time to not think about anything first.

If you rest your head and have some room in your mind, you may be able to see new scenery again.

We are always on Nachi's side.