It's a human who should die

According to the Buddhist way of thinking, the end of this life comes from the other side, and we don't go looking for it from here.
Death always comes to any kind of life, but it comes when and where it should come depending on the law of cause and effect, and it is not something that can be decided by one's own convenience or judgment.
Thinking about when you are going to die, whether you should die or not, what kind of death is appropriate... are all delusions born from worry.
When humans imagine things they have never experienced, only the image rotates at full speed and the delusion spreads endlessly.
As the question says, “No major accidents have occurred yet, but I'm worried that they will happen someday,” what everyone fears and suffers from is not the failure itself that has actually occurred until now, but an image of failure that may occur in the future. However, that image is nothing but a delusion that I let myself swell in my head. Actually, if you reflect and be careful, it is unlikely that such a major failure will occur.
Rather than worrying about death that cannot be decided on one's own, I think it would be much less burdensome for the body and mind to try to reflect and be careful in order not to cause a major failure.

There isn't a single person in this world who has no value.

“I'm less than a cockroach”

“A man who should die”

You've been suffering until now to the point where you think about it.

However, there are no people anywhere who can determine a person's value.

It's not worth it because there are so many failures.

It's not worth it because it has a disability.

That's never the case.

Idiots have also been reckless since they were children.

I forget to turn off the tap.

Let the bath water overflow.

Leave the water boiling and forget it.

I even jumped out onto the road and got into a traffic accident.

There were times when we played with matches and suddenly it almost caught on fire.

That's why I think.

Failure is not a personality.

Failures can sometimes be counteracted.

Attach a memo with “Close” written on it in front of the faucet.

The bath will be fully automatic.

Use an electric kettle for hot water.

If it's easy to forget, you can make up for it with a mechanism.

What is important

If I fail, I'll look back.

Then, devise ways not to repeat the same mistakes.

That's the accumulation.

Everyone will fail.

It's not people who don't fail, I think people who try to learn from mistakes will grow.

I just have one request.

Don't take it alone now when it's so painful that you think “I'm a person who should die.”

You wrote this consultation to ask for help.

Please cherish that feeling.

Please talk to your trusted family, primary care physician, and supporters about your current suffering.

Your life isn't determined by the number of failures.

You don't need to be impatient.

Let's walk together while continuing our ingenuity one by one.

I read it.
You think you're a person who only makes mistakes and isn't worth living for. Are you wondering how to accept death? I don't know the details about you, but I really understand your painful feelings.
Maybe you just fail all the time and think it's no good no matter what you do. You may think that you have a disability and are useless because you can't do anything, but first of all, because you are alive now, you are a very precious person, and your life is very valuable.
Even if you say that, you probably won't get the hang of it, and you might not feel it.
However, you are always a very important person to someone, and there is always someone watching over you.
None of us are perfect, so failure is inevitable, and we live by failing over and over again. There may be some differences, but everyone lives every day while making mistakes. As you do that, little by little, you will be able to do it one by one, and you will be able to acquire correct wisdom. But it's not that easy, though.
It may not be very comparable, but I think baseball player Otani also has a batting average of 30%. That's because you can't hit a home run in every at-bat. Therefore, in the midst of repeated failures and mistakes, they are hitting by entering the next at-bat while correcting them.
We live our lives by failing every day, no matter how big or small things are.
You know you've failed, so you can think about what to do next and fix it.
It may be quite difficult, but please have confidence in yourself.
I sincerely pray that you will continue to learn and grow one by one while making mistakes, and that you will be able to live every day confidently and healthily. And I wholeheartedly support you. We wholeheartedly agree

failure.
Let's say it 30 times.
Failure, failure, failure until the feeling that something decreases, is lost, or diminished is not accompanied by it.
What do you think?
Words are just facts as facts. sound.
Or maybe five spice scraps would be fine.
Schisandra. Schisandra. Schisandra.
It's just a word.

Even if it's a horrible scene, when you don't bring in a human standard of value, that scene is simply a colorless and transparent fact.
Let's also take a sober look at cases that you have certified as failures.

・Drop things and dent the floor
・It's good to take out your belongings, but forget them on the table
・The bath water overflowed

・Drop things and dent the floor
👉 Just because it was dented, just that it happened
・It's good to take out your belongings, but forget them on the table
👉 Just the fact that it's on the table. There's no need to get hurt.
・The bath water overflows
👉 It's cute compared to the teacher who spilled the pool water just because it was overflowing.

Why do humans “need” zazen meditation? Can you say it's necessary?
That is, if people have never practiced zazen, their own thoughts and ways of thinking always have an advantage over facts. My own images and assumptions have been overpainted, so I've never seen what they looked like before they were overpainted. People who have never encountered a pure world before they are steeped in human thought give their own thoughts an advantage.
That's why I've never seen the fact that it's colorless.

Until now, you've only misunderstood that what you thought, what you imagined with your own head, and what you thought was true, and the reality before you became steeped in thought, cool images, scenery, and movement have never been in orthodox Buddhism.
Since it wasn't there, they are doing what they thought and were reminded of.

In order for people to be saved, they need to be saved from their own way of thinking.

Thoughts that I'm less than a cockroach, or that I'm a person who should die.
huh? When and where on whose head are they doing it?
Are other people next to you, strangers passing by, saying things that bully yourself with such bad things?

You should keep your concerns simple.
“Ah. My way of thinking and the negative assertion of my way of thinking is too strong.”
The way to destroy it is zazen.
It is a path where the self controls one's own thoughts.

It makes me feel like there are a lot of things I can't do. That's why I think it's a failure.
It's frustrating, isn't it? I really want to be neat, but why am I?

Still, haven't we lived this far?
I also fail a lot. I also borrow help from people around me. What you can do yourself is limited.

When I look at things I can't do, I feel sorry and frustrated, but there are times when I can do my best. That's how I've lived to this point. I'm sure I'm not alone, and I'm there with lots of help and support.

Failures aren't the only “me,” and I'm sure you've lived up to this point. Let's acknowledge not only our failed self, but also our own growth up to this point. From now on, do what I can. Wouldn't that be fine? Nobody is blaming you.