It's all over

　I understand the feeling that you are standing in a place where you have no choice but to say “everything is over.”
However, the “thing” that was putting everything on is over, and your “life” is not over.

Once upon a time, students going to the Pacific War wrote a poem like this.
“Graduating after an unsuccessful paper is nothing but remorse that goes awry” (Karatsu Tsuneo, Tokyo University of Commerce)
“The lid (lid) in the book box is the last needle in the back of the box is riddled” (Kokugakuin University Tamai Kiyofumi)
“In the professor's room, the teacher says: Akari (Akari), Red, Akato (Fumi), the teacher is fuming with shadows and thoughts” (Kanazawa Medical University Satake Ryuzo)
My academic career forced me to move away from books in the form of early graduation, and I made up my mind that my life would go this far.
Also, while many people were scattered (sangued), many people returned and were able to live their “lives” that continued.
No matter how ridiculed (ridiculed), Tsuruta Koji, who continued to sing his thoughts for his comrades and spirits until his death, left his path to becoming an actor, which he had been aiming for since he was 14, went to the military as an apprentice at age 19, and returned as a survivor of the Naval Air Force.
Then, I lived my whole life while wearing my left ear, which became deaf when I was 22 years old.

When I failed an exam with a clear purpose, I was keenly aware that the curtain had come to an end on my “life.”
When I looked at the train station where passengers were constantly coming and going, all the people were nothing but flickering like shadows with the station lights in the background.
When I saw the landlady chanting the title on the second floor of an izakaya that looked like a hut that shook violently when a train passed by, it seemed as if a small child was moving deep into an earthen pipe, moving far away from this world.
There was no way to live anymore.
Even so, when you live while crying, laughing, and being helped by relationships, “things” happen that make you realize that your “life” continued.
Twenty years later, I finally came to an end to “The Days That Ended,” and I truly recovered from my alms.
It was a completely unexpected turn of events.

If you too can live while accepting in your heart that it's over, there is no doubt that “things” will surely happen again someday.
The Buddha believes that the sincerity of accepting it directly and not letting go will lead to new relationships and watch over the opening of a new world. Gassho

Communication is limited to completing it until both parties are satisfied.
There's no end to how far you go.
Complete any conversation.
It's not that difficult.
Because it's simple, it's something we shouldn't overlook.
Most of the time that people are sad when they pass away is because communication is imperfect, or because their interaction with each other remains incomplete.
Please resolve it somehow while you're alive.
Please keep on saying goodbye and thank you while living.
There's something I want to tell you while your consciousness is clear.
Below, I would like to say something serious.
You're probably the one who ended it without permission. ('DED')
it doesn't end when a person dies, does it?
Dead and living people will continue to have conversations, right? (°-°)
we're not going to end it, are we? (`-') No
What's more, if you have time to say that it's over even though you're still alive, you should probably ask for a final meeting even if you just walk in with your family. (>_<)
If you don't fully convey what you want to say and what you want to say, you'll regret it, right?

Kaji-san

That he got terminal cancer

Not being able to respond to his desire to be a kajisan

Not being able to see him freely

It conveys painful and painful feelings.

even if he just passes away
Even though it's a tremendous amount of suffering

The last thing we can't be together
I think they're hurting Kaji-san again.

Let me also take a look at past questions
I think there are complicated circumstances involved.

However, it's already in his family
If the existence of Kajisan has been revealed

even if it ends in vain
Why don't you go a little further

And convey Kaji-san's honest feelings

Sometimes it's complicated for his family
It may give you emotions
Let's apologize at that time