Please help. I want to die tomorrow.

I've had a lot of bad experiences too. If you read my answers, I think you'll be able to understand a small part of it (this is just a small part).

There were times when I felt really depressed, and there were times when I thought there was something wrong with me that wasn't the case at all, and I thought it was just bullying. However, in any case, a school should not be the only place to live, and if it's a workplace, the workplace should not be the only place to live. Even if it's hard at school, that shouldn't be your only place. Also, whether it's now or not, you may be able to find a fun place in the future. If you're not alive, you won't be able to experience anything fun. If you die, that's it.

Please live anyway. It's about broadening your horizons without just looking at the fact that you're being left out of your peers at school right now. That's because everyone has a day called tomorrow.

I have also been insidiously bullied, so there is no guarantee that relationships will improve within school. But I think you can live if you find just one person somewhere who can accept you. Until you find that person close to you, I think it's good to consult with Hasunoha as many times as you like. Please don't think about dying. I want you to stay alive.

When I was in high school, I acted alone.
Tokoton penetrated one person by one.
I'm still alone.
Maybe you like one person.
There were times when I felt lonely, but I think it's fine to be alone.
When you have the strength to be alone, your mode changes.
I think having the strength to fulfill that is also necessary in life.
I sometimes talk to people, but I'm alone.
No matter who you are in a group with, you are alone.
Everyone is alone in heaven and earth.
Of course, making friends is important.
I have friends now, but I still think I'm alone, and even so, I don't feel alone.
There is such a thing as one person.
Let's change the word friend. The existence of people who understand, people close to you, people with similar tastes and hobbies, people you can share, and the friend you're looking for may just just happen to be just a coincidence that they aren't there.
I'm sure there are people who have relationships beyond class.
There must be kind people. We are your friends too.
I can always get in touch with you on Facebook etc.
You don't have to go to school in case of emergency.
Let's throw away the image of our ideal friend for once.
You might find your best friend, your true friend.

it won't be okay if you die. don't waste it. You don't even go to school.

Your lives are your parents, and your parents... A gift from beyond a hassle.
It's unreasonable to try to force yourself to lose it by being affected by such a leader bastard.
It's a waste. Perhaps that waste is the greatest waste common to all humans, or even living things.

You can make friends outside of school, and if possible, you can change schools.
You probably don't have to be there. Take care of yourself.
What you should think about this time is to sort out the reasons why this happened. Is this the cause here and there, or is it some other act of sitting or wording? attitude? facial expression? and so on. Why don't you sort those things out? Let's think about how to communicate. Think about how to keep a distance from people. and so on.

You don't have to force yourself to go to school, right? Until your mind calms down, do the above organizing tasks, do things you like, and calm down your confused state of mind. Also, as I wrote earlier, please consider concrete measures such as making a switch. Also, I think I can study at home without going. I think it's also good to study with the thought that you'll get better grades than anyone else in your class.

Correct conduct (action). Correct oral behavior (wording). Correct consciousness (state of mind). There is a very important correlation between these three actions. Please try to focus on this rule.

Anyway, don't overdo it, talk to your parents, talk about the situation to people close to you, and feel at ease. If it gets tough, please feel free to contact us again.

It's so painful that I want to die... You've been able to endure it every day... The attitude of the children around you suddenly becomes cold, and you have to spend time in an atmosphere where there is no room for yourself in each group. That is really painful, isn't it? One person is lonely, isn't it...

People are deceitful creatures that put themselves on the shelf, blame or say bad things to their partner, drop their image, and be satisfied with themselves. Maybe they have feelings of jealousy towards you. Just as your parents and teachers said there's nothing wrong with you, it's not your fault. I don't blame myself.

It may be tough right now in school life, but let's keep a distance from them and concentrate on other things (study, clubs, etc.) until summer. If we go on summer vacation, we won't meet face to face and it will be easier, and the way we deal with them may have changed.

Being alone makes me feel lonely, but this is how we are connected to you.
I'm always there for you (*^^*)
I'm not alone.

Good evening, Ami-san.
Are you lonely and miserable, don't know the definitive reason, deny everything about yourself... and think it would be easier to die?
Try waiting to die first.
Schools and workplaces always have leaders, and they must play a role in creating colors. However, it's just that the leader of Ami's class made a mistake with the color, or it just didn't match Ami's.
Just as it is difficult to be liked by everyone, it is also difficult to be disliked by everyone.
I know everything is difficult for Ami-san in her current life. But will throwing away the rest of your life for someone you don't respect really benefit Ami?
When I was in my third year of high school, everyone went on to college or cram school and was all alone. People who are sticky with friends say, “Is it OK to do it like goldfish poop even though it's my future?” I was looking at it with frosty eyes.
It was that kind of color class.
I don't 100% understand the feeling of being alone. I'm sorry, and I want to understand, but I'm the type that doesn't mind being alone...
But since I'm alone, I can confidently say that I'm not miserable or unhappy.
“I can't go out with the whims peculiar to girls. Wouldn't it be possible for you to think, “If it becomes goldfish poop, it's better to do it alone to come to fruition”?
Sadly, people are born alone and die alone.
It's fine if it's just a long life or the rest of high school life. Alone is fine! Can't you think of that?
If you're having trouble not having anything to do when you're alone, please contact us anytime.

First of all, as Takuashi said, you can't die. When I'm at a loss, I fold up a blanket on my futon or bed and go to bed. You should run away. If you put death and not going to school on the balance, you've come to a conclusion. You should not go to school. I don't have to worry if I don't go. You won't suffer. You don't go to school to feel bad, do you? Because I go to school to learn in order to study. You don't have to go if you feel bad about it. it's fine!! First of all, the fact that you have to go to school is different. You are there, your future is there, and the school is there for that, so you don't have to go to school to destroy your future. In order to obtain high school qualifications, there are various methodologies, such as a correspondence system or a fixed-term system. Let's get rid of the idea that we have to go to school first. You have to throw away that idea. It's totally fine even if I take a week off. Attendance days are usually 1/3 (66 days) or more, 1/4 (50 days) or more, in tough private schools, and if there are classes on Saturdays, there is a possibility that you will leave the year with an absence of 1/5 (44 days) or more, but conversely, if you don't take 44 days or more off, you won't leave the year. I worry too much. Humans were born to be happy. You don't have to do anything that doesn't make you happy. really. If you get into that feeling of loneliness, pain, or loneliness, you don't have to go to a place like that. Never overdo it. However, if you don't have any friends at school and feel lonely, try calling out to friends outside of school, for example middle school or elementary school. There are places where people like you who have a hard time going to school gather. Try searching by region plus truancy or something. I have friends who can listen to me. Also, even here, if I get an email from the temple, I will always consult with you. Right now, I'm not overdoing it. If only I could rest longer. It's fine. Please feel free to contact us anytime. I'm praying for happiness. Jōkō-ji

It's hard being alone.

Why do people bully people bully?

Maybe there was something terribly painful at home or in a place other than school
They may be bullying you because of that stress.

But maybe it's a completely different reason.

I don't think I can understand it now no matter how much I think
I get tired even thinking about things I don't understand even if I think about them.
Let's stop thinking as much as possible.

Third grade is a time when there are a lot of worries, such as entrance exams and getting a job.
That's why I think it might be bothersome...
I think third-year students are also at a time when it's hard to make friends.

I remember being surprised, but according to one book
It seems similar to what people regret right before they die.

One of them is,
“I wish I had tried more to do what I wanted to do”
There was such a thing.

What kind of things do Ami think would be fun?

If you wish to go on to college
Even if studying isn't fun right now, it might be interesting to immerse yourself in it,

If you want to get a job
Learn the manners and manners necessary for working adults,
Why don't you learn tea ceremony and calligraphy and immerse yourself in it?

If you want friends, make ends meet, do some hobby club, etc.
It might be a good idea to go out to a place where people with the same interests gather and immerse yourself in your hobbies.

Of course, if you have a hobby you love, I think it's a good idea to fully immerse yourself in it.
If I was doing something important for myself,
I think you'll understand that what people think is actually a small thing.

I'm sure Ami, who is working hard in pursuit of what she loves, will shine brightly.

The more impatient you try to make friends, the harder it is to make them,
When I work hard at something and work really hard,
I think they naturally come from people around them.

Update: If you want to be good friends with them even if you put up with yourself a little bit,
Don't talk about yourself first; listen to the other person first.
First, listen carefully to what they are talking about.
Also, try to understand the other person's situation and feelings as much as possible.
Ami-san also wants to be nice with people who can listen and understand her words, right?
I think you should do that yourself and give it to your opponent.

Hello Ami. I was curious about the title “Please help me,” so I looked at the question. That was painful. My mind and body were exhausted because I was swayed by the words and actions of my girlfriend, who is a leader. I was amazed at how she turned her palm in a girly way.
I also saw the thank you, but if one person really doesn't like it, did they want to discuss how they can get along well with those girls? Or maybe you just wanted to connect with other friends?
The advice changes slightly as a result, but either way, you have to take a close look at reality.
Ami was told to “give up” as a thank you, but giving up is used in Buddhism to mean “see clearly.” It's about discerning the essence of things.
I think Ami will probably have to put up with the leader girlfriend that Ami cares about in order to do well in the future. On the other hand, it is said that there are people in other classes that they can call friends. I'm thankful that this person exists. It would have been even harder if I was alone at school. You don't have to worry about socializing in another class! You should rely on your friends when you're stuck.
If you don't like being alone, don't say that you want to die alone, you have no choice but to go to someone who listens to Ami's story. Try acting as asked by hasunoha. If you have Ami's compassion, and you can even worry about relationships around you, you'll surely find friends who understand you. Don't worry too much and don't forget the courage to jump in! Everyone at Hasunoha is on Ami's side!!

Ami-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi.

There will always come a day when I look back with a smile on my face as to why I had so much trouble and suffering.

There is no unstoppable rain.

They say when it rains and when it's clear.

Everyone has many difficulties in life.

Of course, just as an umbrella is needed when it rains and a parasol is needed even when it's sunny, there must be a shade to support each. Thanks to you, we are able to spend our time.

Hasunoha is also a shadow for Ami, and I would like to encourage and support her in solving her problems.

Everyone at hasunoha is really worried.

The monks who answered earlier said they were worried after all, and they wanted them to say something.

There are times when you hold it alone, think about it by yourself, and even if you try to do something alone, it's just impossible.

My field of view has become extremely narrow, and it's like this is the only one...

Please don't think that you're going to die. My family, relatives, teachers, friends, classmates, and everyone in Hasonoha is so sad. It's sad and painful for me too.

If you can't do it at your current school no matter what, you can't do it. There is an alternative. There are also free schools, correspondence systems, transfers/transfers to a fixed-term system... or a place called the “Reba House” of the modern version of Rukkoji Temple. No matter how much you look for options, they will come up.

I thought this was the only thing I could do, so I didn't push myself too hard.

I'm sure the day will come when I can look back with a smile on my face. It's fine.

Also, it doesn't have to be a recent situation, progress, or worry, so please let me know by asking another question or adding a note in the thank you column. I'm waiting.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho