I don't understand my own feelings.

The Buddha said that everything was impermanent.
Everything is not constant; it changes.
The heart is the same.
That's why 30% of married couples get divorced.

If you want to maintain your positive feelings all the time, chant those feelings out loud every day.
For example, put the following on the wall 3 times at a time.
Thanks mom and dad!
I'm going back to school, studying, and doing ○○ work!

Thank you Reihi for your question.

There are also people who say that the heart is a “heart” because it “changes in a circle.”
It's natural for it to roll around like that.

But why is it changing?
It changes according to your own circumstances, doesn't it?

So what am I?
This is changing, too.

I don't have a well-defined self.
My heart shakes from time to time.

There's no need to get depressed.

However, in my shaky heart, what I think I am sure of,
Why don't you just keep in mind to find it?

Please try to pull out the power of your shoulders.

Please stop.

It will be easier.

I don't care, I don't care

Reihi-san
Nice to meet you, my name is Dateryuho.

I think Reihi's current state is very difficult.
There is a word “axis”
If it's squishy
We are constantly in a state where various worries are born and disappear.
This is very painful.

Right now, I'm also on the side that answers like this
From teens to mid-twenties
I was worried because I couldn't see myself.

You can also tell Reihi there
One, I myself firmly believe in my own feelings
I'd like to tell you how I was able to hold it.

That is...

Thoughts I only think in my head
It's about writing it out in a notebook as a letter.

Not just Reihi
It seems that humans think 20,000 times a day
Half of it doesn't even stay in my memory

And in it
Strongly say “that's good ~ ^^”
“No!!” or

Only thoughts that touch emotions
It seems like it's going to float up.

So that thought that comes to mind and then disappears
In a form that is clearly visible
Please use your own hands to write it out.

Then
Until now I've been stuck with emotions
The feeling that floated and then disappeared

“Ah, this is what I think right now...”

It's starting to look a little more objective.

Then
When you notice it naturally
The “axis of oneself” has been created.

What is actually going to try
It takes time and effort and is bothersome
It doesn't change just because I did it...
You might think

... If you try it, you'll see the effect.
Be sure to make time for that.

Other videos such as ways of thinking
They are summarized on YouTube.
Please take a look at it when you have free time.
http://bit.ly/1JXVj41
(↑ you can jump to YouTube from here)

You're still young
You don't have to overdo it.
Please be interested in a variety of things.

Reihi's life
I hope it becomes something wonderful
I support you from the bottom of my heart ^^

I'm stuck thinking too much about things that haven't even started yet, so I'm stuck. Even though my feelings are shaken, no one understands me. It's impossible to just want them to understand. Why is that? That's because you're not actually doing anything right now. Sometimes by experiencing it, I can decide that this is fine, or that this is difficult for me. Even though I don't have any judgment materials, I'm worried because I think about a lot of things. Talk about your worries when you can't move.
First, make a firm plan for what you want to do and the studies you want to do to return to school and proceed reliably. Let's finish the preparation properly before returning to school. Also, let's cheer on your sluggish body when you exercise or work part-time. If it's a part-time job, you can also make pocket money, so isn't it two birds with one stone? Dreams and hopes aren't far away. When they are piled up one by one every day, a ray of light shines through. Let's keep track of everything we know from now until returning to school. Wouldn't it be better to take care of everything and think about whether it's suitable or not? I'm praying for your success. Jōkō-ji