Can't I choose my own lifespan?

Yu-sama

It's hard. Not being able to determine the lifespan is also tough, isn't it?

No one is born with the intention of being born.
At some point, I think I began to think about what I am and what I am going to die.
I'm sorry for the very common expression, but the reason you can't determine the lifespan is probably because when you're born, no one is born saying they'll live exactly ○○ years.

Therefore, it is not possible to determine the lifespan yourself.

Before you know it, humans are probably the ones who notice their own existence and are distressed about life and death.
I think what Yu-san is suffering from while thinking about longevity and death is a fundamental human suffering.
I think thinking about death means thinking about living.

Somehow, life was cherished, and I think they were able to live without forgetting to ask questions about what it means to live.

First of all, let's do good or bad, and stop giving ourselves a 0x rating.
Evaluating is not limited to high evaluations or low reviews; in fact, it's an act of ruining the pure material itself by changing it to a different color because you want to apply paint of your own mind to the characteristics of the material itself.
There is a scene at the end of Dog of Flanders where Nero submitted a picture of his wonderful memories with his grandfather to a competition and didn't win a prize (ah, did you know?).
Everyone is rich Bon Bon Bon Bon, and the picture is “good, great, psycho... as expected, boy” (bought over?) It is highly rated, and it will be the top prize. they're adults, aren't they?
However, at a later date, only one judge said that Nero's picture was the best, and that it was a wonderful psycho. (Say it on the spot)
It's already too late, and Nero was shocked that he didn't win a prize, and it's the final episode that I can't watch without tears saying that he was dumbfounded because of that, but if you think about it carefully, it's full of amazing places.
First of all, it's an important memory with my grandpa, so it's wonderful enough just as it is, without anyone's evaluation.
I don't evaluate it for better or worse. In particular, we don't evaluate just bad things.
If it were AKB, it would be a big operation where they wouldn't participate in the general election.
To die is to have a bad evaluation of oneself.
I gave myself an X of low ratings to the fullest.
Why don't you take a break from evaluations and value judgments for a while?
You are wonderful.
Therefore, if you become aware that you have become a resident of the Inner World, the World of Thoughts, until now, you will move towards a solution.
Let's say there are two bicycles here.
Idea number A
B reality issue
When I get on the idea number A and pedal, the following things fill my head.
Thoughts, evaluations, images, kiosks, guesses, emotions, judgments... these aren't things you do all day long.
Even computers freeze when there is a lot of information.
Roughly, people who are mentally tired only ride A bicycles and pedal.
The reality issue of B takes you away from the world of thoughts.
Keep the facts as they are. That is B's Zen life, noncontemplation.
It's about not exchanging personal evaluations or feelings. Dogen-sama called this reckless.
Let's live every day by pedaling unrated and reckless.
I recommend meditating at Hamamatsu Ryusenji Temple and Kakegawa Shorinji Temple. I was saved too.

There also seems to be research showing that 90% of people who committed suicide were “depressed” in their mental state when they committed suicide.
So, if suicidal thoughts continue for weeks, there is a possibility of “depression,” so why not see a psychosomatic doctor or counselor.
This is because there is a possibility that such feelings are appearing because of “depression.”
Now, I think longevity is a general term for the causes (conditions) that keep you alive.
Air and food are part of our lifespan. The existence of families trying to keep patients who have collapsed due to cerebral hemorrhage is also a longevity.
As long as the earth, people, and yourself have the power to keep you alive, there are cases where you can be kept alive even if you don't want to.

Buddhism preaches reincarnation, so if you die, you will be born again.
The next life will be determined by the actions of this world.
If you do good deeds, you will be born in a good place, and if you do bad things, you will be born in a bad place.
It's called Rokudō Reincarnation.

You may be able to end this life of your own accord.
However, since reincarnation never ends, the next life begins.
If your life after it began was in hell, there's no point in dying.

It is Buddhism to break free from the loop of reincarnation and become a Buddha.
If it's a life where you die anyway, it's better to die after confirming that you will be liberated.
Everybody dies.
Let's listen to Buddhism so we can go to a good place in the next life.
Then I can rejoice that this life was also a good life.

Yu-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

I'm sorry to hear that you have suicidal thoughts.

The feeling of being disgusted by this world is an important feeling in Buddhism when starting to walk in Buddhism as an “detached heart,” but suicide is still not something you should do.

Why shouldn't we commit suicide... about this. We have dealt with each of the following questions a little so far, so please take a look.

About suicide and suicide
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_319870.html

“... only suicide in a state where the mind is controlled by worry or ignorance (fundamental ignorance) is never recommended...”

Next, it is about “can't life span be determined?”... but since “fatalism theory/fatalist/determinism” are excluded in Buddhism, things that fall into that category are still denied.

Now, when it comes to how people think in Buddhism, they think in terms of “good fortune.”

First of all, all things and things are made up of various causes (causes and conditions), and I think it is impossible for things or things to be determined as entities that do not change forever and forever.

Furthermore, depending on the relationship, it also means that results can be changed, but simply, if you don't grow properly, you can shorten your lifespan by any amount, and if you spend your time paying attention to your health, you can even extend it. Of course, disasters and accidents may be unavoidable, but there is nothing that cannot be changed by taking proper care of disaster prevention or reducing carelessness. If it is due to an unavoidable force majeure, it may be unavoidable, but that is also related.

Anyway, if we want to have better results in this life, and this life after, we need to make an effort to change the relationship to something as good as possible. If you spend your days thinking only about bad things, it will be difficult to have a good relationship. I can't overstate it, but I would be grateful if you could feel even a little cheerful, energetic, and positive.

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho