Questions for Buddhists Part 9
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When I used to meditate, I meditated trying to get rid of distractions and become nothing
But I realized that the consciousness itself of trying to get rid of distractions and become nothing is a distraction
I left unconscious and unconscious of trying to become nothing
Then I saw a scene where small grains of various colors were moving irregularly in front of me
When I'm following the irregular movements of those small grains with my eyes, I'm still conscious within myself
When I wasn't following the irregular movement of those small grains with my eyes, I was in a state where I was unconscious
And when you don't follow the irregular movements of those small grains with your eyes and you're in a state where you're unconscious
I'm in a daze with a mystical feeling that the color is nothing like the sky and at the same time it's not nothing
And when I stay that way the whole time, I see something like a daydream
When I'm daydreaming, I'm not conscious, so I'm watching without being aware that I'm looking at it
but when I get back to my conscious state later, I realize that I had a strange dream just now
There were good things about daydreams, but there were also bad ones
The worst thing was that in my daydream, my other self killed people indiscriminately
But I'm staring at it
I don't know if they're conscious or not
I don't know if there are values of right and wrong
I don't know if it's me or not
I was just staring in a daze. It was a really scary dream, so I told my parents about it
Then my parents said, “Eh! Were you meditating upstairs? I was told, “You were watching TV downstairs...”
When I heard that, I meditated and thought that if I were in a state where I didn't know if I was conscious or not, I would be possessed by an evil spirit
And if you search for the roots of meditation and yoga
I learned that it is from Sheva, the Hindu god of destruction, that dances with a human head cut off
I also learned that Indians worship this Sheva by ritualizing cannibalism, narcotics, and perverted sexual habits
Aren't the roots of meditation and yoga dangerous?
Are meditation and yoga not dangerous at all, just good for your health?
Aren't you meditating too much and getting possessed by evil spirits?
What I saw was just an illusion, so wouldn't it be better to continue meditating without thinking about anything and attain enlightenment?
Or rather, as a result of continuing to meditate, can we gain the power of enlightenment that can save Japan, the suicidal powerhouse, and even this nightmare of mine?
