I can't help it because I'm afraid of hell
Also, sorry for your question.
As advised before, they offered incense sticks to their grandparents' Buddhist altars and apologized “sorry” while holding hands for their mistakes and mistakes when they were children.
However, once again, I only remembered things I didn't like about myself, and now I'm starting to worry about what happened after my death.
I'm still a little girl in my twenties, but to be honest, I'm afraid of hell.
When I was a kid, I began to think that I did really bad things, such as not being able to apologize, the fact that I couldn't apologize, made lies or mistakes, made mistakes, made a fool of or hurt people, cursed in my heart, thought ridiculous things, and didn't return my borrowed things due to the cruelty and curiosity peculiar to children
There were times when I was scolded so hard, I myself felt bad, and wasn't able to get my things back, and I think there were times when I tried to be useful to people and did good things.
But I remembered my bad points, then I remembered hell and became scared.
I think I had memories of being really scared of the hell I saw in pictures and picture books in the past and being frightened by the fact that if I did something bad, that feeling faded, and parts that were indifferent to people's death came out, and even when I watched comics and anime dealing with hell as the subject, I sometimes thought it was fiction, but there were times when I saw people who went to hell being slashed in the body by demons and turned away my eyes.
Remembering them, and thinking that my sense of guilt comes back and I end up going to hell after I die... I'm really scared, and furthermore, it's really scary because it's written in books and on the internet that I will suffer for quite a long period of time.
I honestly don't want to go to hell. You'd rather become a ghost and stay in this world the whole time... but what about that? My thoughts went round and round.
I think it's selfish, but I don't like feeling pain or suffering even after death, even to atone for my sins during my lifetime.
I tried to think about different things, but in the end, I remembered it again and sometimes screamed in my heart and thought someone would help me.
There are things I think are fun and there are times when I feel scared, so what exactly should I do to stop this thought? Is there any point in remembering these things?
What should I do to avoid falling into hell?
