Is it OK to be alive

Yura-sama

He's a very serious and kind person. There was a time when I felt the same way. The more I think about it, the more I feel alone. In my case, I didn't like being in a circle of people anymore.

But it was all about the world in my head.

A world of delusions. The inside of my head is just blaming myself and hurting me. It's limitless. It's just a story in my head that doesn't have any basis for feeling that I'm responsible. I don't think there is such a thing as responsibility. It's probably made by humans. I think there is only cause and effect. Please don't be swayed by such things.

Since it's okay to be alive, they are still being kept alive in this way. There's no such thing as being alone.

Nice to meet you, Yura.

I want to feel that I'm alive.
But even if I hurt myself, nothing changes.

I don't know what traumatized you, but the fact that “punishment for oneself” is written on it has some cause.
But even if I try to get rid of that trauma, it's hard to get rid of it.

Even if humans try to erase things from the past, they can't and won't go away.
There is no such useful ability.

Things from the past are not erased; they become useless due to the effects of various things.
Just as the balance scales are balanced when weights of the same weight are placed on the left and right scales, something the same or more makes things from the past unnecessary.
In other words, the various relationships that surround you will erase it.

However, if you don't move from where you are now, you won't be able to encounter things that will erase it.

If it doesn't move, there will be no material within reach.
If you move one step, you'll be able to reach new materials one step at a time.
You're not alone.
That's how everyone grabs the ingredients to maintain themselves.

If your mind is about to get stuck, try whatever is at your fingertips.
Once you've done it, it won't change, but by doing it two or three times in a row, you'll be able to encounter something new again.
If two or three degrees doesn't work, try 10 times 100 times.
You can also look for something else.

You may not be able to see it now, but all people live their lives to a greater or lesser extent that is how hard they are.

What you don't need doesn't exist here.
The reason I don't think it's necessary is because my eyes are only looking in one direction.

What you have to overcome is there even when you close your eyes.
Even if you run away from that place, they'll follow you again.
Even if you escape in this world, you will repeat the same thing again in the next life.

You need you more than anyone else.

There was a time when Osho was thinking the same thing.
But before you think about whether it's okay to be alive, you don't have to understand that you're alive and can't get an answer even after thinking about it for 3 or 4 hours.
There are times when you can't live according to someone's expectations, and there are times when someone doesn't take good care of you, but that's probably because it's annoying to do things I wanted to do but couldn't do, and in the first place, if you don't think to do that, it won't be a problem even if you go off the rails.
I don't want to be forced by someone to do something I don't want to do.
You don't like bad things.
But more importantly, no likes or dislikes, it's just that.
I am me.
Nothing more, nothing less.
No matter what kind of face I want to be born with, or not, this is me.
If someone says bad things, let them say it.
Apart from that, this body, mind, and helicopter are not growing.
That person is just trying to gain an advantage over it.
The important thing is that you are the only person I can mention for being really kind to myself.
Mr. Osho recently broke his body, and he walks softly and gently so that there is no burden on his body when walking. From now on, please try to do the easiest breathing, facial expressions, and walking style in the world. to myself.
Humans can be happy even if nothing hurts them.
The past doesn't matter anymore.
From now on, try treating yourself to the softest in the world.
You may know that I was the one who bullied me.

Yura-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

This time, I asked you about your serious concerns.

“Is it OK to be alive?” “Is there any point in living?”, “I want to disappear”... we have all kinds of things that are sometimes unbearably painful, painful, and sad... it's a very harsh and cruel world.

However, it is precisely because it is such a world that living is precious and something I am thankful for.

Also, none of us are strong enough to live alone.

We always depend a lot on other things, and we can only exist by supporting, helping, and sharing.

Yura is by no means alone. We may not be able to help you much, but we have hasunoha monks too.

Please, I want them to rely on others even better. Family, relatives, acquaintances, friends, teachers... when it's hard and painful, please help me, ask, and I want them to speak up without hesitation.

Also, I'm sure Yura will be asked for help by someone, and there will be things she can count on, and I would like her to help you as much as possible by doing what you can at that time.

We are not “alive,” we are “being kept alive,” as Mr. Kunimoto also said.

Please look not only at humans, but also at animals, plants, and the activities of nature. Even if it's just one food or a breath, the more you can firmly grasp your own existence, which is brought to life thanks to so many things, I'm sure you won't think “I want to die” so lightly.

When it's hard or when it's tough, go to the beach, riverbank, mountain, etc., and enjoy nature with peace of mind. The sound of the wind, the murmuring of the river, the sound of waves, the warmth of the sunlight, the sounds of birds and insects, the flowing clouds... try having a relaxing time to face your own “life.” Also, please experience the fact that you are being kept alive little by little.

As long as you're kept alive, you can live. No extra hesitation is required. I want them to make a lot of use in their lives.

Please, I hope Yura can spend her time smiling brightly and without stopping.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho