It's annoying, annoying, and I feel like I'm going crazy.
I didn't ask for that, I thought I should stop it,
It's frustrating because it's annoying. It's bad for the other person, and when you say thank you for overdoing it
It makes me feel like my heart is dead.
I would like to receive it more calmly.
I wonder why they don't take it well.
Blaming yourself becomes a vicious cycle.
I don't know what to do.
Hello. My name is Takumi Komatsu.
It's okay to get frustrated and think I should stop it.
You don't have to force yourself to say thank you. It's okay to overdo it and say thank you so much that MM-san's heart has died.
You don't have to be good at receiving people's kindness.
What does it mean to be good at receiving kindness in the first place?
I think mm is taking it well.
It doesn't matter what you think. It's okay to get frustrated. It doesn't matter how you feel.
Please feel and affirm that just the way you are, just like you are.
If I blame myself, then that's who I am. Please acknowledge it.
Don't think I hate myself like this, I don't like this personality, just feel it, and just acknowledge it.
I think MM-san is wonderful now.
It was when I was carrying my mentor's teacher's bag at an ascetic dojo.
While drinking tea, we had shiso rolls. At that time, the teacher said, “The old lady in the neighborhood has always given me a lot. What's delicious is delicious, but come on. As expected, I didn't need this much, but “it was delicious!” When I said that, my aunt was happy, and she made so many more things for me again. They were eating happily while complaining, “I haven't finished eating it (laughs).” The complaining part is also a taste of memories, and the complaint part is probably a feeling of affectionate entanglement.
I think humanity is like that. It's a monster where various feelings, such as the feeling of wanting to stop and the feeling of being thankful, overlap like a marble pattern. I think it is precisely because I have so many feelings that my heart is alive.
First, why don't you just admit it's that kind of monster. The feeling of being bothered and the feeling of receiving it are both contradictory and compatible. Isn't it strange? But that's the kind of thing. Humanity isn't something you can divide. So let's forgive and acknowledge MM-sama himself for not being able to honestly accept it.
If you deny something you don't like, it's subtraction. If you do subtraction, it will eventually become 0. It may be that the heart is dead.
But if you accept even the parts you don't like, it will add up. If you can do addition, you will eventually be able to add up the heart that honestly receives, the feeling of gratitude, and the person in front of you.
So let's do addition and make it a good cycle. That will surely make it easier.
You have to be a great person! I don't feel bothered, I don't feel like it. It's smarter to live without getting carried away. Let's live well, stay strong.
I read it. I read how you are feeling right now because you don't know what to do.
The kindness and kindness of people is so annoying that there's nothing you can do about it, and it's annoying; that's probably your real intention right now. It's probably your unmistakable feeling.
Are you not accepting people that much and have lost room in your heart?
I feel that you are actually mentally and physically exhausted and driven in.
When you can't afford it at all, you may not be able to accept any kind of thankfulness.
It's just my personal opinion and it's something I feel, so I don't think it's okay if you play it.
After all, please take care of your mind and body first. If you're in a situation where it's full like a cup of water and it's overflowing, please remove the overflowing water thoroughly and leave room.
If possible, calm your mind in a place where you can relax in order to heal your mind.
Every human being is finite, there are limits.
I would like you to have even a little peace of mind so that you can continue to interact with people and live a rich life.
Life may seem like a long time, but it goes by in a blink of an eye.
I pray for your future and that you will continue to live a fulfilling day with a relaxed body.