Please stick to your beliefs. You may be tired, but you're not wrong. I think you're doing the right thing.
However, isn't it about choosing between sticking to the small events in the immediate future and creating conflict with the surroundings, or gradually revising the consciousness of those around you by putting your ideals farther and bigger?
A long time ago, there was a TV program that closely covered an Air Self-Defense Force instructor and a pilot egg person. Since elementary training jets are single-engine propeller planes, they can be pulled left or right depending on the rotation of the propeller. No matter what, when Egg landed, she couldn't run straight on the runway, was bad at correcting propeller power (torque), and was unable to cure her habit of running zigzag. No matter how much the instructor scolds you, you can't fix it well.
It is clear that the cause is that they are fascinated by the immediate movement of an airplane being pulled by the power of the propeller, but the instructor himself was a brilliant person who was able to quickly learn piloting techniques, and no one of the trainees up until now was this sluggish, so the instructor didn't know what to do.
After worrying, the instructor rides a bicycle at the airport with the trainees. As expected, trainees can run their bicycles straight. So the instructor said, “Where are you looking at riding a bicycle?” I asked. “I think I'm looking at a mountain in the distance,” the trainee replies. The instructor orders, “OK, well, look straight down and try driving.” As soon as the bike stops running straight. The instructor said, “Your landing is just like now. If you look at a mountain in the distance and run a bicycle, you can go straight ahead, but it becomes unstable because you're only looking ahead.” The trainees who got the hang of it were able to cross the first barrier.
This airplane piloting analogy may be difficult to understand as it is. It may be close to what it feels like when riding a bike damaged due to severe crosswinds or a fall. Even in such cases, if you keep your eyes far away, it should be easy to correct the force to the side.
Please have higher and bigger ideals than ever before. Please live your life without being disturbed by the little things in front of you. I myself can't keep going like that, so I'm going right and left, though.