Set a deadline for suicide (previous life penalty?)

Good evening.

From the content of your question, I don't know what kind of symptoms you are having trouble with, but apparently they are serious and long-lasting. It's very difficult.

Well, I have an SNS called Facebook, and when I look at this, advertisements sometimes appear. It's also a video.
I think it's always annoying, but today, Mei Ichinose appeared in an advertisement for the car manufacturer TOYOTA. I watched it until the end, thinking she was so cute (laughs). Ichinose is a swimmer with a shorter right arm than humans.
It seems that Ichinose thought “when I first swam with a prosthetic hand on”, “it will go a long way.”
But she says, “I don't usually need a prosthetic hand.” They said, “I am the one with short arms.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPp7zvbwLxE
She thought it was wonderful to be able to say “that's me” due to her handicap of having a short right arm.

There are diseases that are curable, those that don't, and those that heal but take time.
For example, nearsightedness isn't likely to get better, right? That's why so many people wear glasses. You can wear glasses for the rest of your life, but you won't die from nearsightedness. Also, I don't think there are people who die of suffering from not being cured of myopia.

You also don't seem to know the cause or the name of the disease, but why don't you fight those symptoms, think “that's me,” and try to get along well, like wearing glasses again? If you don't feel well, lie down; if your head hurts, take headache medicine.

About 10 years ago, I wanted to show my son something cool at the time, and when I showed him a double jump rope, it was the third time I jumped, and my back felt tight. It was a cold season just like now. It was a park about 10 minutes on foot from my house, but it took about 30 minutes to return to my home, and since it was cold, I was unable to get out of the bathtub due to pain, so I had a hard time.
Since then I've been suffering from back pain. There isn't a day without pain. There are no abnormalities even if I see a doctor. I go to chiropractic several times a month, and on days when the pain is strong, I apply compresses and take medicine. We are dating like that.

Your symptoms haven't improved for half a year, have you?
Being mentally exhausted is also unavoidable. The mind and body are one in this world, so if your physical condition is bad, even your mind will weaken.
It also makes me think about dying for it.
But don't die while the people around you are cheering for you.
Everyone is sad.
Naturally, families are sad, and doctors must live their lives carrying things they haven't been able to save for a long time to come.

People always get sick.
Illness is called good knowledge of Buddhism, or teacher. I think it's very difficult to endure the painful symptoms. However, enduring is all it takes to practice Buddhism. Thinking seriously about life and death is a path that Buddha also went through in the process leading to enlightenment. As a result, your mental strength, patience, personality, etc. will improve.
Also, as you interact with people around you who are kind to you, feelings of compassion and appreciation grow with each other.

When you die, you must leave your wealth and body behind in this world. However, you can carry the spirit you have gained through ascetic practice to the next world.

Also, now or in the future, there will be people in Japan or somewhere in the world who have the same illness as you. The only thing that is useful at that time is the results of treatment for you. No treatment seems to work, but that track record is also important.
Maybe an effective treatment can be found. Medicine is progressing day by day, isn't it?
Certainly, it may be a financial burden. However, medically, they are contributing to society.

Please think of it as an ascetic practice, and think of it as a social contribution until the very end, until your ancestors come to pick you up.

Tamako-sama

Your current reality is “so painful that you have to think about suicide.” This is something only the person himself knows. It's suffering that others don't understand. It's so painful that you want to die... that's the reality and the world you're facing.

When there is so much suffering, what hope should people live their lives with? When you think so, I can also understand the method of “setting a deadline.”

Normally, that's how people get through hard things and painful things, right? If I wanted to quit my job because it was hard, I would say, “Let's do our best for 1 year”...

If it's hard to live in the same way, set a deadline by thinking “I'll do my best for at least ○ more years,” and live for that period. If you think about things like reaching the end of your life without being able to see the future, it becomes more and more difficult, isn't it? That method is convenient and necessary for survival.

Live one day today, and if you reach tomorrow, live another day... I think living as if you were carving your life like that is also a “way to survive” during difficult times.

I felt that the true feeling of Tamako's desire to “set a deadline” was that she was determined to “live” even if that were the case.

The essence of life is a “struggle to survive.” I would like to pray that Tamako, who is currently fighting in the midst of death, has a good plan. Senryu

Tamako-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

It is truly painful for you to suffer due to your illness.

Anyway, I think there is always a causal relationship (cause and condition) in the results.

“There is no result without cause and effect.”

There must always be a cause and effect on the symptoms you are suffering from.

Maybe it's just that you don't understand it with normal medical treatment or tests.

By the way, do you have any allergies?

If you have any idea of a previous history, you may be able to further investigate allergies (or immune function or adrenal function) in detail.

For example, as is not well known, there are two types of allergies: immediate and delayed, and only the former can be tested in Japan. In order to investigate the latter, it is necessary to request an overseas inspection agency such as the United States via a place that can handle it domestically.

Furthermore, something unexpected may be the cause. There is also a possibility that the detox (detoxification/purification) function has become unsuccessful due to the effects of accumulation of harmful metals due to mercury in amalgam used to treat cavities in the past.

Since you have any idea about your medical history or condition, please search carefully on the internet once and visit the appropriate medical institution.

If the cause and effect of the current symptoms is clearly understood, I think that if there is a treatment method for them, treatment will progress.

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Good evening.

What I want to tell Tamako is as I answered the latest question.

This time, someone who saw Tamako's questions and answers here at Hasunoha said that there is something they would like to tell Tamako, so I'll let you know.

This person is someone I had a relationship with at Hasunoha, and like Tamako-sama, has experienced various physical and mental symptoms (and is still in the midst of it).
There are times when she seems to be the same age as Tamako-sama, and it seems that there were many things that made me feel strongly about it from the text.

Here it is↓
http://blogs.yahoo.co.jp/mkba_san/35122926.html

Relationships are a strange thing, and there are probably encounters with various people, such as people who are saved by watching Tamako's questions and answers, and people who want to help Tamako.
That's because there's a real person with blood on the other side of the screen. And every human being has worries and suffering.

Let's live by supporting each other. It's like each other.

Are you still going through a lot of trial and error right now? How are you?

I hope you're safe.

Namu Amida Buddha