On satisfaction, greed, ambition, and self-defense

I want to find the cause of your habit and fix it.

Ambition? Vigilance?
Or are you just not satisfied enough?

If it's ambition, that's fine.
But if you complain, it won't improve.

If you're wary, you won't know until you look ahead, so just being alert is a waste of time.

If you're not satisfied enough, don't be satisfied with yourself alone, and share your satisfaction with your husband, friends, etc., and it may last a little longer.
It may be necessary to think that this is not the only lack of desire and contentment, but that there are so many.

But if you analyze it yourself that much and it doesn't come up, I wonder if something happened a long time ago instead of the cause now...

family relationships? friend relationship?
Was it also something that was painful because you didn't get recognition for something?

But even if that happened, it was a long time ago.
It's not right in front of you right now.

Even if things from the past are affecting you, focusing on the past is holding you back now.
That is where the negative side you don't like comes to light.

Over time, people's minds also grow.
The past is in the past, and neither you at that time nor the people around you at that time exist anywhere anymore.

The future is ahead, and even if you think this won't happen, or even if you think this will happen, you don't know until it becomes reality.
It's fine if we do it this way, but we should think about that a little later.
When I taste what's in front of me, I thoroughly enjoy it.
Don't think too much about the future.

When tasting, they concentrate only on tasting, and people can only improve as they taste.
If you can only taste half of it, you can only improve it by half.
I can only enjoy it now, so I'm going to fully enjoy it now.

People can only see the front, so there's no point in thinking about the other side.
Even if it has a back side, it can't be seen from the front.
Conversely, it's on the back because you don't need it, and it's on the back because you can't put it out front.
Then it's the same thing as not having a reverse side.
There's no need to go out of your way to turn it over.

It may be important to find out the cause and cure it, but I think it's also very important to think realistically and find ways to deal with it.

If you feel like turning it over, say to yourself, “Stop it” and “Let's enjoy it a little more.”

Sports and music players always just need to genuinely enjoy, immerse themselves, and become familiar with it without any evaluations or scores in production.
Once you get through that, you're done playing.
However, the judges and critics have different perspectives.
It focuses on judging, evaluating, and discussing the good or bad of that event.
Isn't this judging committee member and critic mentality the main mover among you on a daily basis?
For example, a fan is moving next to me.
If you look at it from a player's point of view, all you have to do is realize the current fact that “oh, it's cool.” This is the Buddha Mind, the player's perspective.
However, when it comes to evaluation, they say, “Oh, it's facing right. Oh, I turned to the left. Next time, turn to the right again... maybe this time they'll look up, right? No, what do you do when it flies like a bamboo copter. Just like attaching a gun to a drone, it also makes me worry about things like what to do if the fan becomes a weapon...
That is the critic's mind and the judging committee's mind.
Please [place importance on what you feel rather than on evaluation].
In the first place, that's all the facts there, so even if I think back now, I won't go home, and what happened before (I'm going to drink a gastroscope now) hasn't been done to my mind and body yet. That's why we should live our lives properly and closely now.
Please spend your time doing what is right now without the evaluation committee members and critic staff appearing.
In recent years, people from all over Japan have become general commentators.
A good critic not only sees negative things, but also part of their job is to search for solutions.
If by any chance, you become a critic, try pouring energy into future countermeasures and solutions rather than criticizing or making negative remarks. (^<^)

In the world of monks, “not interfering with other people's training” is an important point. (It's not easy to make, though.)
I think it's important to complete the work you've been given. It's not disgusting to watch out for or punish people's mistakes or bad habits.

It's something you can't fix with ambition.

It's good to hope for growth and make an effort, but that's where I am now. If you can notice that “I have a habit of imagining, and I look for bad things,” how about putting “not pursuing thoughts” into practice.

There was someone like this at work ← just as I saw it, stop it just like that!
I won't add more than that. We don't look at our heart and accept what we see as it is. I don't have secondary thoughts.
If you're aware of your heart's movements, I think you can do it.

I'm not an expert in psychology, so I can't make a decision, but it seems that people look at their own inner world by projecting it onto others.
If you think “it must have actually been like this behind the scenes” to others, maybe you yourself have a natural nature that makes you want to do that to others (wipe your hands behind the scenes).

Not wanting to lose money, so-called stinginess, seems to be a type of anger affliction.
Maybe it's the work of anger and anguish.

Worrying about work at home may be the worry of laziness, wanting to quickly clean up work and relax. Actually, as long as I'm alive, the things I have to do will come up next.

The reason we want to see bad things in others may be because we have pride (we want to evaluate our own value), and we compare ourselves with others as a method of that evaluation.
Maybe I want to compare myself to others, even though there are ways of evaluating that I've grown compared to my past self.
Worries are the cause of worry and suffering, so it's good to be aware of your own worries.