I'm afraid to live

Chichi-sama

It was a tough experience. You must have felt very scared.

I can't trust people. Certainly, that past experience may have made me feel betrayed. However, there was a reason why that happened.

And you're living well right now, aren't you? It may be different from ideal, but I'm alive. Isn't it okay to be imposing?

I don't know what I can compare it to, but if I focus my feelings on what I need to do now, I'll open up something.

There's no end to worrying about the future. Then you'd better not worry about it.

Don't worry about the scenery right in front of you. You don't have to worry about the desk, TV, pen, or light. You're adding it. So you're the only one who can't add it.

Living well in the present gives you confidence, and you can live a proud life without looking back on the past or worrying about the future.

I remember that the title of the book by Dr. V, Dr. Frankl, who miraculously survived a Nazi Jewish camp, was probably “Let's say yes to life nonetheless.”

Dr. Frankl says that people who continued to have hope were able to survive even in the ultimate Jewish camp, which was in an even more extreme state.

If you think about it, I've been deceived quite a bit too. What the couple who introduced me and asked for a matchmaker did was keep lying. They are people whose “common sense” such as being religious doesn't apply at all. I still get depressed a lot, but it seems “natural that there is discrimination in this world.” In other words, the absurdity gets through.

I think that's stupid, so I want to make sure that I don't suffer from discrimination or absurdity to the extent that I can so that myself and others don't suffer from that absurdity even a little bit.

It must have been scary. Please don't worry. I've already come back safely.
An acquaintance of mine was shot dead near a certain border.
Countries and people that are in a state of excessive illness due to such strife, strife, defense, fear, and their own sense of defense are all desperate to have themselves.
They're really looking for help.
I'm looking for the right information.
It is not information about the world influenced by the major interests of politics, but correct information for living a happy life as a human being.
Since they have been eroded by such fear and become ill, they are wary of people and cause harm.
However, since the attack surface is shown first, the opponent is also ready to attack.
That's because they're desperate to protect themselves too.
Please help them understand that mentality.
Eliminating the disease in countries that are on various alert states, such as China, South Korea, and North Korea, is politics as national pharmacists and physicians, and peace movements, peace activities, and religious activities.
However, countries such as China, where such activities themselves are blocked cannot be said to be safe.
Therefore, what is needed there is medical treatment of the human mind other than politics, which goes beyond political activity and can also change politics. Music, entertainment, sharing, support, true religion, happiness spreading activities, etc. are weapons that Buddhists should possess.
I believe that creating such a world is an act that transcends national borders and removes everyone's fears.
Let's all raise that kind of awareness, and pray that each person will raise their ambition for reform and improvement so that we can begin creating a world where people bound by fear of conflict are freed.

It must have been a tough time.
That response was probably mistaken, but since the cultural areas are different, it's not going like Japan.
I can only say sorry.

But is it Japan where you are now that has made you distrustful?
Have people at Japanese universities made you what you are now?

As you know, at a time when most Japanese companies withdraw from China, it's not strange what happens.
I don't know what motivated you to study abroad, but was your response after coming back to Japan the same response you received there?
Or were they treated worse?

That probably must have been different.

When you came back, didn't the Japanese people look down on you, saying, “You've had a terrible experience”?

Didn't they do everything in every way for those of you who were in a terrible situation over there?

Isn't it because you grew up in Japan that you were able to try to get something until studying abroad?

It's very rude, but when I'm reading the sentences, I can't help but think you're escaping into yourself, blaming it for being forced to abandon your study abroad midway through.

Isn't it only in Mongolia that you can get what you want?
Isn't that possible in Japan?
Can't you pour your passion from studying abroad alone into something else?

No matter how much I look back on that time, I can't go back to that time.

You probably don't intend to work part-time for the rest of your life.

Unless you inspire yourself with something, you won't be able to get out of your current state, right?

The past is no longer there.
Even you at that time probably wouldn't be here anymore.

In order to take even one step forward, the situation will not change until you take a step forward yourself.

Isn't it time to stay in your shell and lament forever?

Don't be bearish.

While there are many people who keep pace with their neighbors and are content with a normal lifestyle, you aspired to something until studying abroad alone.
Don't put a lid on you yourself.

You must have had the power to take on challenges.
Now, cheer up again and challenge your own life.

There's plenty more potential left for you.

I believe in your potential.