I don't want people to think I'm unmotivated.

Even if you think you're unmotivated, nothing will change in your life.

When you start imagining people's minds and turning them in a bad direction, you are the one who suffers. Also, gradually, the presence of children begins to be felt as a hindrance.

That's probably not what it really is. Everyone knows that children are more important than anything else. Even if they don't have children and there are people who don't understand how parents feel, that's it.

You're definitely not lazy. I'm training.
Please don't be swayed by thoughts or delusions, and take good care of the child in front of you right now.

Humans bind themselves.
They bind themselves and self-destruct with their own thoughts.
“Chudon”
This can also be said to be the ultimate in Buddhism.
“All suffering is suicide bombing/self-restraint.”
You're just self-destructing and self-restraining.
There really is no such thing as being tormented by others.
That's because it's all my own thoughts.
Where is suffering taking place?
There is absolutely nowhere else but in my own heart.
Therefore, even if they are bullied by others or are thought to be bad, people with a strong spirit who know this point won't give in to their own thoughts.
If you don't give in to your own thoughts, even if you are bullied, or act like you “don't think you're motivated,” you won't be able to torment your partner.
Even if you think so, there shouldn't be anything wrong with that.
At best, you just want to keep a good and ideal image of yourself from others, but that's also an illusion.
So imagine how a weak dog barks at a strong dog and doesn't move at all.
You think everyone “must be thinking this,” but have you checked everyone one by one? In reality, I think the results will be interesting.
I think you'll experience “a completely different world than I thought it would be.”
Normally, when you're pregnant, you should give top priority to putting your body and children first over work. That's because it's a lifelong issue for children too.
These are pregnancy, childbirth, and childcare.
Aside from this, making you prioritize flexible arts and family business is something that ❝ you shouldn't let that happen ❞ at this time of year, even if it's the people around you and your own will.
Within your own convenience, even if you have a feeling that you want to prioritize this, what you should prioritize more is childcare ❝ should ❞.
As a mother, I think there are things I “want” to do.
But please listen to your child's voice.
As an aside, in Buddhism, there are terms such as flexibility (flexibility) and gentleness (gentleness).
Through Buddhism, try to have a flexible mind, be gentle without resistance in response to changes in current events, accept honesty = that as it is, and spend your time without adding extra complication.
It will be a lifelong flexible performance.

Who are flexible arts practiced for?

Maybe it's for the teacher?
Is it for my friends?
Or is it because no one thinks bad of you?

If so, please keep practicing even if you leave your child behind.

No, that's not it.
If it means “I'm doing it because I enjoy it” or “I want to do it for myself,” then your priorities must have already been decided.

I think that's fine.

You probably don't pay a monthly fee and go to lessons to see what people around you think.
If you're paying a monthly fee for your sense of accomplishment, you should prioritize raising children now and burn your passion to the fullest in the time you can.

If you really care about your surroundings, just say “I can't take my hands off my kids right now” to your teachers and peers.

If you really like it, it's better not to lose your passion than let them acknowledge it.
As long as you have passion, you can start practicing again in the same way.

If your priorities change and you really want to do flexible arts, then you can leave your kids to practice at that time.

If it's something you want to do, you can keep doing it even if time is free.
Even if it seems that they have lost their passion now, if they resume, they will recognize it again.

What you imagine to be in the mind of the people around you isn't actually inside your head.
You're just imagining the inside of a person's head without permission.

Just like people don't understand your heart, neither do you.

It's not that you're doubting, it's you.

You and everyone around you are together, just thinking in your head.
I'm just hurting my heart by imagining it without permission.
I'm just afraid of my own imagination.

Why don't you leave that kind of imagination alone that you don't even know if it exists?

If you have a happy everyday life right now, now should be the happiest everyday life for both your husband and child.

It's up to you to decide which one you choose, but don't let yourself be caught in the eyes of those around you now and regret it later.

There's no need to bother suffering until you pay your monthly fee.