I don't think it's worth living
I don't think I'm worth living.
My parents spent money on me, and they sent me to a reasonably good university, but I couldn't get used to it well and it hurt my body.
I graduated, but I failed in job hunting.
I haven't been able to get along well with people since I was little.
I was able to study, but it was so hectic that I couldn't do well even if I worked part-time.
I can't work, and I can't have any relationships.
I'm so lazy, so if I work part-time, I'll get in the way (I don't think I'll be able to work for my wages), my body isn't very strong, and I don't have any physical strength, so I quickly become lazy.
I don't have any friends.
My parents say they won't die, so I'm just alive.
However, if you live like this, it will eat up your parents' savings in old age, so I think it's better to die already.
What I hate more than anything else is that I'm a selfish person with no compassion.
No matter what you do, there's no such thing as thanking them.
I think in my head, and that's what I say, but my feelings don't move.
That's why jealousy and feelings of inferiority are all alone, so I don't think it's good.
There are almost no things I think are fun or happy about.
It's only when I'm running away from books, comics, movies, and TV that I feel barely at ease.
They are living as if they have already died, and all I hope is that they will live to the end of their lives tomorrow.
My parents are desperately trying to encourage me and look forward, and they literally work hard to the point where I am thin, but no matter what I see them doing, my feelings don't move.
I really think that's rubbish.
But I have no idea how to change myself like that.
So in conclusion, I think it's better to die for money.
In any case, I don't seem to be able to live to the end of my life in terms of money, and I can't help but think that it would be good to die within 2 or 3 years when I still have enough money to spare, if I take my parents with me and let them go astray.
Even for myself, I don't think there's much point in being born if I just die like this, but I don't know what to do.
This way you can change your personality! or,
It makes me feel grateful! or,
This is what it means to live! or,
Anything is fine, so if you have any advice, please.
