I'm a student, but I don't understand why I live.

If I were in the same situation as you, I would feel exactly the same.
What do you work for?
When you were a student and every day was fun and fulfilling, didn't you think about that?
I'm sure it was appropriate and had just the right balance.
The fact that you are reminded of such a gloomy thing right now is a sincere SOS signal.
I intuitively feel, “Are you okay with that, it's dangerous?” so honestly, it's better to quit.
My best friend also worked on a server, but I quit after 1 month.
The management of top secret information is also involved, so it seems that they couldn't talk to anyone about anything, there was no window, there was a sense of blockage, they couldn't talk to people at work, and there was no emotional interaction. It seems that quitting is also difficult. It helped me a little bit. They said they were glad they quit.
It was a great experience, but they don't seem to want to do it again.
It seems that fate is carrying one's own life.
It seems that the mission is to use one's own life with one's own subjectivity.
It is absolutely useless if you carry your life or use it appropriately or carelessly.
If you follow the other path, you will surely be able to obtain happiness that is more valuable than money.

What about deciding that it's no good even though you haven't worked yet? I feel like that.
I guess I haven't gone out into society yet, so I can't help but feel uneasy.
However, if you're afraid of failure, you can't advance ahead as a human.
You should turn failure into a good experience and aim for the next one.
Even though I haven't even worked yet, I don't know what it will become when I work to death.

There is a story called “Sour Grapes” in Aesop's fairy tale.
Even if I try to eat the grapes in front of me, they won't arrive
Anyway, this is a story about a fox that spits out dismissive lines saying that these grapes are sour.
Aren't you just like that right now?

If you do it, you can do it, everything you can't do
There is also a saying.
these words are lost by people like you
These are words left to me by my ancestors so as not to get in trouble.
There are many lost people now and in the past. You're not alone.
It doesn't matter if you get lost.
I'll just do it; if it doesn't work, I'll have another chance!
Let's think more positively.

If it is a so-called “black enterprise”, there is no need to hesitate.
It all came down to quitting right away.
After that, let's try it out with a fresh feeling.

that's because gentleman doesn't approach dangerously...

Mr. Y.H.

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

I saw desperate questions from anxiety about employment in “black companies” and vague anxiety and sorrow about the future.

We have also answered the following questions about the reason and meaning of living until now.

Question “Why am I alive now”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/165

Question “The meaning of living”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/93

Question “What do humans live for?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/36

This time, I'd like to talk about it from a slightly different point of view.

“Living” is nothing but “the present moment.” We're not living in the past, and we're not living in a future that hasn't come yet. For example, we are not living in the “now” with the breath we inhale in the past, we are not living in the “now” with the breath we will inhale in the future, but we are breathing and living with the breath we inhale “now.”

Of course, the “now,” which was called “this moment,” became a thing of the past from the moment I already said it, and it is no longer “now.” In other words, we can only “live” within the “now” moment-to-moment continuum.

Just as there is nothing you can do about things that have already passed, there is nothing you can do about the future that has yet to come. This is also because neither the past nor the future exist as an entity. (Actually, “now” doesn't exist as an entity either...)

The question is how to “live” in the “now.” We have no choice but to do what Y.H can do “now.” If there is anxiety ahead, it's about what to do “now.” If it is determined that it is a “black enterprise,” and the future is uncertain and unavoidable, countermeasures will be implemented “now.” Moving into a job search for a company where you can enjoy leisure and leisure time again, or moving to acquire skills and qualifications in anticipation of changing jobs from now on, and moving into marriage hunting with the aim of marriage, of course, each result depends on the person's efforts, but if you don't move “now,” as long as you are caught up in the past and future, you will lose sight of the “now” and lose sight of how to live.

Well then, when will it work “now, right?”

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Is it a black company... That makes me a little uneasy, doesn't it?
I haven't even entered yet, so I don't understand anything just from the information I hear. There are also places where they only seek profit and only think of employees as comrades. I would like you to make a firm assessment.
I don't think quitting is running away. It is important to stop in order not to lose sight of the way to live. It's hard to break your body or mind.
In order to live, you also need money to work, but that doesn't necessarily mean you'll have a rich life.
There are many different occupations and ways of life. I think it's okay to take your time and find it (*^^*)

I understand that I went to a black company because I didn't have the courage to become a freelancer.

However, it is somewhat difficult for job offers to become a source of trouble...

I'm called a black company → bad company! I think that's a little different, so the feeling is slightly different from my predecessors, but in short, I think the problem is what Y.H was looking for to get a job.

First of all, Y.Hsa seems to have a negative image of work.

The reason work is hard isn't because it's a long time, and it's not because I can't do what I want to do. This is because you don't know what you're looking for; this is called hesitation.

If you have the mentality of being “made to work,” you probably won't be able to build a good relationship with each other
You probably won't be able to build a good relationship between the company → you → the customer
However, I don't want you to use it like a discarded piece

Even if you work to death, it won't be anything; you live to be happy; you know death in order to know happiness. Even if you die from working, you will only die from overwork.

You don't seem to have a good impression of freelancers

The world you live in is much bigger!!

The world you can see from a school classroom isn't everything, the Earth seen from a spaceship isn't the world; it's much, much larger.

I have traveled around Japan, it took 1 year and 2 months, it was a very good experience, and I was able to do it even when I was suffering from a mental illness. It seems that volunteering (long-term) after graduating from university is popular even in foreign countries, and I've heard that they are rated higher than college graduates.

You are free to choose between joining the company or becoming a freelancer, but there are endless other options, so if Y.H's question doesn't include any other issues, I'm sorry for the simple answer.

Hello Y.H.

I have a question about a “reason to live”...
It looks like you've been thinking about it quite a bit.

When questions like this come up, most of the time
There are people who say, “I don't want to go to the company I'm getting a job offer right now, I don't want to go, I want a reason,” “is it okay to escape where I live now, it's bothersome, but somehow dangerous,” “it's like abandoning people around me right now... but it's easy because I can be spoiled”...

I think they'll come soon. wow! It's coming! That is the future. ... You can try not to look at it, but I don't think you are.
“Even if you work to death, what will it be?
Is there any point in a life where you don't have a family to protect and you can't enjoy your own leisure time?”
You're looking at the root part.

You can't die. You shouldn't hurt anyone, but I also don't recommend hurting yourself.
If you think about it simply, it's probably two.
1. Don't get a job at that company
2. Keep getting a job
Neither 1 nor 2 can stay the same the whole time, right? If they don't get a job, search for others, continue to be students, and go on a trip. It's also a good idea to expand your options. You can also think of it as a relationship and go. It might be a good idea to live for something.

However, you can understand that you shouldn't “blame” the reason. I think it's good to work and live “thanks” to that reason.

　Mr. Y.H. Why get a job? More importantly, where should I get a job? Did you decide that? “No, that's different. I had something I wanted to do, so I got a job at a company that could do it.” If you think so, get a job. I won't stop. If it's something I want to do, it won't be a pain at all, even if it's from morning to night.
No matter which company you go to, there are places that are black in their own way. Service overtime is now commonplace. Power harassment and sexual harassment from superiors. restructuring recommendation from the company. bankruptcy. All of this is an age of self-responsibility. The government only guarantees unemployment insurance for about 3 months. The world has become an age where we can only think about ourselves.
Y.H. ① has a family to protect.
② A life where you enjoy leisure time.
My dream is to get it. What do we do to do that? Rather than thinking about it, let's look for an occupation or company where you interact a lot with people. Money is certainly important, but it's too early to ask for it in this day and age. If it's a workplace where you interact a lot with people even if the salary is a little low, is that OK? Maybe?
From my experience, I've been doing various jobs, including part-time work, and the light always shines when I cross the 3rd and 3rd year barriers. I think you'll develop an attitude to face difficulties. After all, I quit my job where I couldn't stand it.
When I felt discouraged by myself, I thought, “Today's hit is a hundred injustices long ago.” Reminds me of the word. These are words shown by Dogen Zenji in “Shohoganzo,” and he said, “The arrow now hits the center of the target is the result of shooting an arrow 100 times and removing it. So don't be afraid of failure.” It means.
I won't write anything more. Think about what you want to do. The results of failure in young people show up in their 30s or older. Let's hold on to it for a long time.

Nice to meet you.
First of all, congratulations on your job offer.
I'm also currently in my 4th year of college, so the rigors of job hunting are all around
You can see it by looking at the situation.
Also, I understand the anxiety that lies ahead very well.
I haven't decided on my career path after graduation yet...

I sometimes hear the words “young people these days don't have patience” and “that's why young people these days.”
However, I think making the decision to “stop” has a slightly positive meaning when taken as self-care while living in this day and age.

If people around you celebrate your job offer, feelings of sorry will also occur, and freelancers may be uneasy.

It might be a good idea to try it out first and then reconsider when the self-care signs appear.

P.S.
I'm sorry I wasn't able to give much advice.
Also, please post anything if you have any questions.
There are many seniors and classmates in life here!

To Mr. Y.H.

I'm thankful that I was able to get a job because of some kind of relationship.

There is never anything without meaning in life.
Think for yourself what it means.
Even if you don't notice it now, one day you'll realize that it's meaningful.

There were times when I didn't know what to do,
Think about that once again, and you will surely come to realize what you want to do and what you should be through various experiences.
Maybe my current job is related to that. Gassho

First, it's great to think about a reason to live!
Most people think about the reason for living, the meaning of life
I think I'll end my life without understanding.
Since Y.H., at that age, clearly has questions,
I'm sure you'll find some answer while you have life.
I think that is the meaning of being born into this world.

By the way, since I was doing biology, I was thinking like the one below.
“Organisms, regardless of whether they have a reason to live or not,
It's programmed to live.
So, originally, living things don't need a meaning to live.” and.
Even now, scientifically, I think this is the correct answer.

However, religion looks at human life from a larger perspective.
If you think of it as a present life that connects past lives with future lives,
Naturally, the meaning of life now comes up.
I think you can think of it as my life, connecting my ancestors and descendants.
Even in jigsaw puzzles, there's no point in looking at just one piece,
If you look at it as a whole, that one piece is really important.
Please take a look at your current life from a big perspective.

It must be a tough job,
Speaking from my experience, I always know when it's time to quit.
I don't understand the message from my body, probably from the depths of my heart,
Do you feel like “I've done enough, I don't have anything to learn from this job anymore.”
At that time, I think it's a good idea to follow up honestly and quit.