I want to believe in something like God.

I read your question.

Let me talk a little bit about my “faith.”

I'll leave everything up to the Buddha called Amida Nyorai. I believe in Namu Amida Buddha's nenbutsu.

I believe it.
That being said, it's lousy faith.
Confidence is like if you blow it, it will fly.
while being ashamed.

Every day I am also swayed by my mind that changes from day to day.

but
Aren't humans like that?
You can't even rely on yourself, do you?
You can't even manage your own mind the way you want, can you?

A person named Honen who was preached about the Nembutsu of Namu Amida Buddha said this.

“If you doubt but nembutsu, you will pass away”

You can doubt it; even if you doubt it, if you call the names of Namu Amida Buddha and Amida, you will never be abandoned like a parent whose name was called by their child.

That's it.

It's me who can't even believe. It means that even that is foreseeable.

We humans don't rely on our lousy self-reliance
I want people to understand that they are “God” and “Buddha.”

I am
Even if I'm a lousy person who can't quite believe me, “I don't care”
“I can't count on your faith from the beginning.” “For now, don't you call my name instead of that?”
Amida is watching over me.
I “believe” it.

Lastly
Honen-san also said this.

As you practice Nembutsu while doubting, “faith” is naturally cultivated.

If that were the case, I wouldn't believe it either.
The Buddhism I learned is a person who finds what the deceased called Shinto and Buddha in places where the consciousness of “me” disappears even though their own body is their own body, and since they were saved from all of their own dark lives, they are trying to convey their true meaning without misunderstanding it.
Faith is correct understanding.
No one would believe it if there was no such thing as being saved properly.
There may be places where it is OK if you read sutras blindly, and there are probably people who imagine an imaginary image just by blindly reading it and are satisfied with it.
However, neither you nor I can be saved by that kind of thing.
You're probably wondering if there are any more decent people who can preach the true Shinto and Buddha.
I was also a punk monk, so I always slept in The Liar Boy's sermon.
There was a story in a Buddhist manga I read a long time ago that the jewels worn by a courtesan named Armrapali faded as soon as she heard the Buddha's teachings.
q (-. -) Phew, that's ridiculous. there's no reason such a thing exists.

(; °°)... it was there.
That happened when I heard the story of a person named Inoue Kudo Roshi.
At last, I was able to meet a boy who said serious things.
As an unbeliever, I've only been doing gassho worship exercises at ascetic dojos until now, and I was able to meet someone I could put my hands together for the first time.
It's about listening to people like that live.
Once a month in Tokyo, the uncrowned pope of the Soto sect from Shizuoka comes to a temple called Fukusho-ji in Ebisu to talk. When I heard that person's story, I experienced the “feeling” that everything I had thought was valuable until now had turned gray.
In the face of true Buddhism, there is such a thing.
・I am one with my original things and environment. Humans are at ease when one thought doesn't occur there.
・When you look at something without thinking about it, you won't get hurt.
・I don't want to have a human opinion on anything.
・Humans think this body is “me,” but when I look at it, I forget it even though it has a focus. You probably forgot about it even though you had ears. You were probably reading this without saying “me” even though I am me and you are you.
What “happened” to this and that thing before it had a meaning?

Why don't you believe in the Buddha?
There are many Buddha statues, but first of all, why don't you believe in the Buddha at a famous place?
Buddha is a real person who was born 2,500 years ago in northern India. They are also called Shakyamuni Buddha, Shaka, Buddha, Shakyamuni, Venerable Buddha, etc.
To believe in the Buddha is to believe in the Buddha's teachings.

There are many teachings of the Buddha, such as “Live by relying on your own thoughts. Live by the laws of this world.” I was told.
Please think carefully and act for yourself by referring to the knowledge and experiences you have gained up until now, and also the opinions of people around you. Also, at that time, think about the laws of this world.
The laws of this world mean, for example, causal retaliation, that is, there is always a cause for an outcome. In order to obtain the results you are looking for, think carefully about several causes that will lead to those results, find them, and achieve them.

You're saying that.
Do you sympathize with the doctrine?
Yes, I sympathize with you. I believe the Buddha's teachings because I think they are correct. Furthermore, the Buddha was even told that it was OK to discard teachings that he could not sympathize with (judged incorrectly). So you don't have to believe everything.

Isn't that different from thinking for yourself?
That's right. Thinking for yourself is Buddhism. That is Buddha's teaching. I often told my disciples to think carefully for themselves.
Don't you feel close to the Buddha?
Doesn't that seem like a Buddha you can trust?

Incidentally, I also believe in Amitabha.
If you say even one word, Namu Amida Buddha, they will take us to the Pure Land of Paradise after death and guide us until we become Buddha.
My impression is quite different from that of the Buddha.
But why do you believe it?
That's because I cheekily want to become a Buddha, but the embarrassing story is that I don't seem to be able to practice like Buddha and become a Buddha in this world. Because of my foolishness, my obsession with my family, my weakness of will, etc. Therefore, they rely on Amitabha as the last resort left. Please ask.
In the Jodo sect, Buddha and Amida are called two gods (two venerable persons) and are carefully respected.

Also, if it's not possible right now, please change your job to a job where you can take care of your mind and body a little more.
Also, if you are unsure about right and wrong, please talk to Hasunoha.

There are various denominations of Buddhism, but all of them are
Erase and control the cause of your worries and suffering
It's a teaching about eliminating and controlling worries and suffering.
Worries The cause of suffering is inner distress.
For example, greed, anger, laziness, pride, etc. are worries.
It's impossible to get rid of worries all of a sudden, is it?
First, be aware of the greed, anger, laziness, and pride that come to your mind and then disappear in your daily life.
If you do that, little by little, you will be able to control greed, anger, laziness, and pride.
If you can control your worries, you can control the worries, suffering, and stress of your daily life.
Why don't you believe in such a causal relationship between worry and worry and suffering?

Once upon a time, Osho, the head chef at a certain temple, was making porridge. Then a fuzzy, fuzzy, Buddha appeared on top of the porridge pot. As soon as he saw it, Osho punched the Buddha. That's a blessing, that's a blessing.

This is Zen. Like paranormal phenomena, mystical experiences, fate, etc., it's nosenkyu.

So what is Buddhism? The Buddha said.
“Everything has a cause and effect. This world is made up of a web of cause and effect connections. We, too, are part of this web. If that's the case, I can't take care of myself unless I value each and every one of the causes that lead to my results. So a really smart way to live is not to act self-centered, but to value others.”

This is Buddhism. I don't say those who believe will be saved.

So what does the monk do? I'm installing the Buddhist Good and Evil OS on my device. So from time to time, I do self-error checks and download patches and updates. That's why I recite sutras and do a lot of things.
So praying is also for yourself. However, if you don't do something for others first, there's no way you can save yourself... there are stories like that.

More importantly, I don't believe Watasha. I keep track of the Buddha's footprints because it's strange. I wonder what's going to happen in the future... I wonder what it would look like if I followed him to the Buddha's point of view and looked at the world from the Buddha's point of view... I want to see it, so I chase it behind my back. I'm sure it will be great beyond that! In that sense, I believe it, though.

Because Buddhism has been carefully selected for 2,500 years across India, China, and Japan, and it's still believed, right? It has high ratings in a different dimension from Amazon's as many as tens or hundreds. Wouldn't it be a loss if you tried it? These are not words of deified saints, and it is hard to imagine what kind of digits they will have. I don't think there's any room for nonsense about that.

Finally, what should I do? Let's download the monk's good and evil patch. The way to do that is to learn from monks. It's OK to read hasunoha too. It's even better if you ask questions. It's even better if you meet and learn in person. This is called monpo (monpo) in Buddhism.

Emiko-sama

Nice to meet you, my name is Shaku Huishin.
I was able to take a look.

Overall, I felt very wonderful.

More than me, Emiko seems to be in a state where enough of the foundation necessary to receive “trust” is being completed.
I think what is more difficult than anything else is to look hard at yourself, and what is even more difficult is not to cover it up, or to dramatize it to make yourself look good, and be aware of who you are.

I think Emiko is in a state where it is ready.

What is faith?

A futon shop will suddenly come to Emiko's house tomorrow, and how about a luxury duvet that originally cost 600,000 yen for 300,000 yen this time only? What if you were told that?

Let's say it just so happened that Emiko wanted a futon.

Seriously, I'm really lucky! and, are you going to buy it?

I probably won't buy it.

Even if you wanted one, what would you do first?
They'll just get a business card or a leaflet, and they'll Google it with immediate effect.
Isn't that suspicious? Also, is the price reasonable or is it real?

What should you do if you look it up, look it up, and find out that it's real, and that it's really cheap.

I'll look at your business card and call you.

The futon from earlier... and

Doubted → Confirmed → Convinced → Believed

I don't think this is true when it comes to whether it can be called trust.

What should I do,
Shall I say one more thing?

I got a phone call on my cell phone from someone I don't know
First, it probably won't come out, but if it does,
“Oh, sorry, but it's urgent, and I really want them to come to the place I'm about to say. If you were told, “I left the house, turned the second traffic light and went east, and came into the tobacco shop alley, and I have some important news.” What should I do?

I'll cut it soon lol
I definitely won't go.
Anyway, I understand that he's a dangerous guy.

But with the same content, what should you do if the other person on the phone is your mom.

I'm going to go with this one.
I'll be there soon.

For the most part, when it comes to women, they say they'll go if their partner is their mother, but they won't go if it's their husband lol

This is a letter.
This isn't something you do yourself; it's something you get.

The joy and peace of mind of having this is unusual.

When I prayed before at Chion-in Temple, the head temple of the Jodo sect, there was a Dharma like this in front of the gate.

“Shame on me not to have faith”

These are the words of Honen Seijin, the so-called Honenbo Genku-sama, a serious high priest.