I'm worried because I remember saying bad things.

I've always been bashed, and there have been times when terrible things have been done by pretending to be on my side. There were times when I was depressed because it was so bad. Recently, a chief priest of the same generation said, “They do terrible things because they do decent things, so being done terrible things is proof (testimony) that your (in other words, my) way of life is correct,” and I'm no longer depressed compared to before. That person is a great person, but after all, terrible things keep being said. Please think that humans are creatures that belittle others, go behind the scenes, and do terrible things. Under such circumstances, relationships you can really trust are rare, but they can always be formed, so I think it's important to cherish that.

When it comes to Buddha, it seems that he was still being harshly ridiculed. The reason was that he was a great religious person. Well, the Buddha was kept silent without being refuted by mocking words. The Buddhist way of life is to not deal with stupid people.

If you think that your way of life is right, don't you have the confidence to think that terrible things are said or done and let go of it by thinking that it's like that?

I'm just thinking about the past. Even if it's left as a letter, it's not what it is now. You should be reminded over and over again, and aware of the reality that you are torturing yourself. The reality is, nothing has a past. There is no forgiveness, no forgiveness, no hate. Notice that these thoughts are delusions created by your mind.

I don't look at what's written anymore. Let's delete it. What was said in words. It doesn't exist in real life anymore. That voice fades the moment it's said. Dealing with it. It becomes an obsession. Let's talk about those thoughts with someone and let go of the past. (Actually a thing of the past)

It is said that people who worry about bad speech are troubled by adding one's own meaning to it rather than worrying about bad speech itself.
For example, there is the phrase “idiot.”
This isn't aimed at anyone, so no matter who sees it, it doesn't feel that uncomfortable.
As a psychological mechanism by which humans suffer from bad speech,
Let's know that it's painful because you're putting your own thoughts on things that are badly written.
The fact that they spoke ill of themselves further added negative thoughts within themselves, plus, added additional toppings like Thirty-One ice cream, and they worry and suffer from their own thoughts.
Dare to look at it that way.
People who suffer in vain suffer more than twice as much.
This is because you do it yourself and drive yourself away.
People who don't mind being told or written don't deal with people at all.
I don't even take it into myself.
They don't take it into me as if it were someone else's affair.
I'm just looking at it as if it were just that.
Let's learn how to be like that.
This is because I will no longer be bothered by bad words in the future.
Speaking ill of it also means that if it's anonymous, the other party is also afraid of this.
It's a mentality where you try to gain an advantage or emerge through it.
It's sad.
It's a mentality where you just become emotional because you're weak, and you're trying to hold back your partner down.
It's anonymous anyway, so it's not proper communication.
It's a very cowardly and despicable act, so there's no need to deal with it.

It's normal for everyone to be praised, criticized, and maltreated.
It's common, and you probably don't even need to remember everything.
It's like being bitten by a mosquito.
Remember what month and day you were bitten by a mosquito for the rest of your life and remember it often
“Damn it, that mosquito that bit me in the arm around ○:00 p.m. on ○MONTH, Heisei 27!” There's no end to holding a grudge against it for the rest of my life.
You're still young, so you haven't had many experiences of being bitten by mosquitoes or being spoken ill of, so you can probably remember them one by one,
If you live a long time, you won't be able to keep worrying about such small things.
So there's also a possibility that time will resolve it (you won't care about it over time).
You may eventually grow up and become the person you don't care about.
Looking forward to you in the future, now
“Sometimes I remember it, but soon I forget it, so forget my future self!”
Let's send homework to our future self.