I want to die

I can only think of hanging myself.

The air conditioner makes me sick, so I can't get on public transportation, and the AC is too cold and it's hard, so I can't work in an air-conditioned room.

I've done various things in the past 3 years to get well, such as doing tests and improving my diet, but since I have a constitution, I can't get better no matter what.

If you do that, you can only do cleaning work, but the company has a corporate culture where free work is good, and that's really stressful. I work for free for 1 hour every time. Even though the hourly wage is the minimum wage, it seems stupid. But it's a company made up of free work. I'm supported by everyone's unpaid labor...

If it's a job I love, I'm still convinced, but I don't like it at all.

I thought I was unhappy because I didn't have any money, but I'm probably the only one suffering this much over money. Everyone became independent and built families a long time ago.

Before I knew it, I was in my mid-thirties and still living at my parents' house. If you haven't been able to stand on your own feet at this age, you probably won't be able to do anything in the future.
It was born in the shape of a human being, but the contents are empty and unkempt.
Parents don't help at all.
I want to finish hanging myself as soon as possible.

3 Zen Responses

Today is August 6th

Today is the day the atomic bomb was dropped on Hiroshima. How did you come across this question on that day? I was thinking about that.
What time is Zoya's “it's faster to count from the bottom”, isn't it? I definitely remember being tied together by “I Don't Want to Die.”
I felt it last time too, but aren't you taking things a little too simply?
Did the beginning “the air conditioner make you feel sick”? My friend has one too. I can't get on the train because the enclosed space is useless. But I work, ride motorbikes and cars, donate books and do activities for children who aren't my own.
Yes. Even if the situation is the same (at least similar), there are plenty of options for how to evaluate it and how to live... even for you.
They complain, “I'm doing a job I don't like,” but there are far fewer people who “do what they like at work,” and they say, “How is it, worth doing? It's an important job, isn't it?” While saying that, I hear that there are companies that force them to work too hard.
Something has gotten bothersome, and it looks like they're just throwing things around, but isn't that the case? Please try writing something again.

Please take good care of it

I read it.
I read your thoughts.
What you think so is dissatisfaction with the current situation, isn't it?
As you said, things don't turn out the way you want them to, do they?

Please think carefully about your work while checking your condition. Even though it's service overtime, you should originally be paid for it. Please be sure to discuss that with the company.
Please think carefully and make a decision, including the future!

It becomes an obvious way of saying it,
Please take good care of your life. There are certainly things that don't go the way you want them to, and things that are painful and painful. Even so, it's your precious life, and it's your life.
We are shallow people, so we get caught up only by what is right in front of us. Nonetheless, we are beings with deep meaning given in various ways even if we don't understand it ourselves.

Please don't give up, look forward firmly, and live from now on.

I sincerely hope that your future opens up.

If you hurry, go around

Ringo

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

I also read past questions and answers.

Anyway, there aren't many things that compare to others.

As myself, I am what I can do and what I can do one by one.

Also, you can count on those around you even more.

If your parents are unreliable, try using various welfare services such as government and private sector independence support/employment support.

If you hurry, go around. Don't overdo it, and let's start making adjustments by doing what we can do one by one for happiness.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

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