About continuing misfortune

It's not particularly unfortunate; it's a normal occurrence.
Everything is always going to break down.
If it's been built for a long time, even the building will get rattled all over the place.
Your building has many parts, such as a window glass called a dog, a tile called a friend, and an exterior wall called a relative.
If the building itself is over 50 years old, it is normal for the attached parts and furniture and appliances inside to break.
However, even though we know that there are no unbreakable televisions, we get upset when the TV suddenly stops showing.
Since we humans are stupid and young, we cannot accept natural phenomena that occur normally as they are. Buddha, who is the ultimate adult, can accept reality as it is.
In terms of Buddhism, I believe that accepting imperfections makes the mind more peaceful.
Japanese people say “Engi is bad,” and they don't want to think about death or illness in advance.

It's something that disappears quickly, and doesn't exist easily, so it's difficult to have, and I'm thankful for that.

　Hello. I think there will also be a lot of heartache from saying goodbye in quick succession.
Now, with regard to “was my behavior bad?”, as Gan Honjo Historian says, I think “it's not bad; it's natural because I've lived a long time.” Nothing more, nothing less.
What I would like to add is, “Rather than looking for causes in the past, I would like you to look at what you are noticing and learning now (from this series).
Everyone knows it with their heads. “What is alive will one day die. Something that has a shape will one day break.” Right now, I think I've just witnessed it and been reminded that what I've heard in words was true. In other words, everyone says, “Living things will die one day. It means he showed you, showed me that “anything that has a shape will break someday.”
If so, the “thing you should learn” is probably that the time will come when you yourself will pass away from this world even though you don't know if you are sick, have an accident, or senility. It's a stark fact.
I think there's quite a difference between a life where you know that and a life where you don't. I think it was an event that served as a starting point for continuing to live while holding onto that, rather than putting blame in the form of “my actions up until now were good or bad.” Surely, the weight of words such as “once-in-a-lifetime” will also change.

The real truth is that it's not unfortunate; it's a fact.
Bad luck is personal loss.
A fact is a public event.
People die, dogs end their lives.
This is unavoidable and natural.
Earlier, I slipped and fell with moss wet from the rain in the temple grounds, hit my lower back, and am bedridden. A child's cold was passed on as a bonus ※Maiko Khan, so that's fine. (※← seems to mean mycoplasma)
But I don't get depressed or suffer there.
This is because they are freed from the suffering of life, old age, illness, and death.
What that means is not to bring a sense of loss or a sense of victim into it.
This is because Buddhism realizes that the cause of people suffering is due to their own sense of loss and negative consciousness.
So, I can't add my sense of loss that torments me to one fact.
The public fact that if you die, you die.
If you look at it with yourself at the center, it becomes more and more painful because it becomes a private loss.
The involvement continues even now. Dead or dead, never lost; it's a fact.
If you look at things with yourself at the center, the fact that a person died becomes a point of view that “I lost my 00 from myself.” Please try to clarify that.
That is becoming a monk, becoming a priest, and leaving.
Being a monk is not about rolling your head around.
The true meaning of becoming a monk is to leave a self-centered way of looking at things.
I think a lot of people are misunderstanding this.
Let's say you were a monk with your head rolled up.
So, if you are hit by bad luck and suffer, it is like being tormented by yourself even though you are a monk.
Even if you're not in the form of a monk, you can become a monk and learn the spirit of separation.
It's not about changing your perspective, and it's not about giving up.
Move away from this view centered on self-consciousness called “I am.”
Losing a sense of loss, loss, and end is what Buddhism does. = I don't look at things with human thoughts or concepts.
Right now, it's painful because you're looking at things conceptually.
Try taking it as a fact without going through your own thoughts.
That is the Buddha's way of life without ❝ loss ❞ in his heart.
Life, old age, illness, death, and liberation is a way of life that deviates from one's own thoughts.
By all means, please use this as an opportunity and try to complete that path while living.
That's because we're here to help.