Resistance to dislike

Currently, I am working on a temporary basis. It was a job that required detailed cleanliness, and I decided that it was not a job that suited me, and I offered to retire and was accepted.
My legs were heavy on the way to work, and I started feeling nauseous before going to work in the morning.
At work, the person who taught me about the work said, “I'm watching how they do it since I have free time right now.”
I was told that it was sticky for about 30 minutes, and every time it was “slow,” “I can't do this either.” “You're not suited for this job.” “Do you think I'll be able to do it by practicing in the future? It seems impossible.” I kept getting told that. Gradually, I felt sorry for myself, and I began to atrophy. I thought I'd do my best not to get attention the next day, and I did my best in my own way, but compared to ~ who came in ahead (seems to have been working quite a long time), I was told words like the above again. When I get home after work, I feel terrible and fall into self-loathing. Recently, I've even started to think that I'm not even worth living for. I am aware that even I am a weak-hearted person. What kind of attitude should I spend the week until retirement? Or I'm worried about whether to give an honest reason and offer to retire on the same day. That is also something that is permissible as a member of society, isn't it? Is it just that I'm not patient enough?

3 Zen Responses

I don't care, I don't care..

You've been working very hard until now.

A fresh start is just around the corner.

No matter what they say, I don't care, I don't care.

Don't muddy the standing bird tracks..

As I said, please work for just a week, just a little longer, don't worry about it.

Make use of this pain now in the future

Senpai's words pierce me.
They even say things they don't need.
By denying Miyu, are they even trying to immerse themselves in a sense of superiority?
However, this is completely meaningless, and being able to take such actions is a sign of lack of confidence.

Miyu has endured up to this point and has done her best.
atrophied, hurt, and unwell...
Terrible words were thrown at me by my senior, but this is all a world created by my senior.
In this kind of illusion, your value and personality will not decline.
It's just that the value seems to be declining in an illusion.

The fact that nausea has hit me means it's already a serious condition, isn't it?
Miyu has been hurt a lot.
You can take a break now.

No matter when you quit your job, no one has the right to blame you.
Oh, if you feel like you're at your limit, you can quit today.
At least I think that it is my judgment as a member of society to easily break the disadvantageous current situation.

Humans aren't perfect.
I can't say that it's impossible for even Miyu to go on a rant like her senpai if you make a mistake.
In the unlikely event that you are in such a situation, please think of “now and now.”
It is only through experience that people know pain and know the truth.

Please keep up the good work.

I read it.
I see... you made your own decision to retire.
Now that it's decided, I think the rest is for them to work hard.
You've already made up your mind, so in terms of feelings, I think it's a matter of being divided and not working, but if possible, switch your mind and take a fresh look at the way and content of your work, so please try it out.
I think there are parts of every day where I've been in a hurry until now, but since they've already retired, I think I can set some room in my mind and stare at it, right?
There is no harm in checking what you are capable of, what you are not good at, what you are good at, what you are not good at, and your consideration for people, communication skills, etc.

Please try to review it even a little for the future.

From now on, you'll find new encounters and jobs for you. Please check it out so you can use it at that time.

Also, since you are retiring, please be moderately considerate and concerned about those around you.
Let's retire comfortably for ourselves, in a sense.
As a result, it's also an opportunity for me to step up without leaving any lumps on myself.

I sincerely pray that you will have a fulfilling day while making the most of yourself in a wonderful encounter from now on, and that you will step up and grow healthily.
Please keep up the good work. I'm rooting for you.

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