About career paths and estranged friends

I'm worried about my career path and my estranged friends.

I'm currently in my second year of high school and I quit school a year ago.
I'm currently attending a cram school to go to college.
I want to get a high school graduate certification and go to college, but I'm having trouble choosing a university.

There is a field I'm interested in, and I'm thinking of going to an art college, and I've also gone to an art prep school, but I still don't know what kind of job I want to become. There is also a local university I'm thinking about right now, but even though I still don't know my future dreams clearly, I'm worried about whether it's okay to move on to a field I'm interested in.

I became truant when I was in the second year of middle school, and I did my best to go on to high school by continuing to attend counseling rooms, etc., but in the end, I didn't get used to the environment and quit high school less than half a year later.
That's why I want to choose my career path carefully at the university.

I was really supported by my middle school teachers and friends, but in the end, I couldn't continue, which caused great inconvenience to my parents.

One year has passed since I quit, and I've settled down quite a bit, but even now, there are times when I regret that if I went to junior high school every day and continued to be in the same place as my middle school friends, I was able to live a fun high school student-like life.

I've wanted to do my best in my own way, but recently I'm not really sure if this is really OK.
In the first place, I haven't passed the advanced certification exam yet, and I don't know if I can pass the university.
I want to make sure I choose a university that suits me so that even if I enter, I won't quit because I didn't fit in like high school again.

Since I talked to my prep school teacher the other day, I didn't know if it was really good for the university department I've been going to, so I have no choice but to think and decide for myself, but I don't really understand it myself.

It became difficult to get in touch with my friends after I quit school, and I really wanted to talk, but I didn't have the courage and ended up only being able to get in touch with 2 or 3 friends.
The email came quite a while ago, and I actually wanted to return the email, but it was hard to return, so I left it as it was, and since LINE was deleted, I couldn't see the email history etc.
I want to get in touch again, but I can't get in touch because I think that something about myself may have already been forgotten, or that my way of thinking doesn't match. I really want to contact them, but I don't have the courage.

I'm worried because I don't know what I want to do.

4 Zen Responses

“Being good at things is what you like”

Orio-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

There are good things and bad things in friend relationships, so it's quite difficult to say that this is good, but in a sense, I think there are times when it is easier to decide with only one's own intentions because there are “no struggles” to be influenced by others.

Did you go to the open campus? Well, it's no wonder that a very specific image is still difficult, and there are times when you feel uneasy due to negative delusions or worries about this or that even though nothing has started yet.

Chinese Laozi says, “Good is like water,” but rather than trying to adapt your environment and position to yourself, it is also necessary to have the flexibility to adjust to your environment and position in order to keep things going smoothly for a long time. (However, if you say “get wrapped up in something that's long,” it can also be a problem...)

Anyway, “if you like things, you can be good at things.” Rather than learning something you're not interested in, I think it's better to learn something you're interested in so you can work hard and stay motivated...

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Distracted driving, the cause of an accident.

“I'd like to get in touch with you again”

Please don't do it now.

As I read the content of your question, I see that your career path and your friends are in a mess, and your mind is noticeably disturbed. Could it be that there are actually so many worries and anxieties, big and small, that you can't write them all over here, and it's getting out of control?

At times like this, why don't you review things correctly with an [honest opinion] (honest opinion) eye?
The character “correct” is written as stopping once.
What should you do first and foremost right now? It might be a good idea to stop and check it out.

“I received great support from my middle school teachers and friends, but in the end, I couldn't continue, which caused great inconvenience to my parents.”

I'm sure it is. We are sorry for any concerns and inconvenience this may have caused.
That's why let's work wholeheartedly on what we have to do now and break the status quo first.
I'm not going so far as to say after raising the flag, but at least to the people who worried about you,

“It's okay now!!”

How about meeting again in a dignified manner after being able to say that?

No human being can “return the favor” as easily as it is said, but I think it is possible to “repay the favor.” If you're grateful to your teachers, friends, or parents who have taken care of you in the past, please repay them for their kindness. I think repaying their kindness means completely rebuilding one's own life. In your case, the first thing to do is pass the high school graduation exam.

Literally, once you're able to live a lively life, let's drop even one souvenir and ask for greetings again with a smiling face.

Work hard on what's in front of you

I read it.
Let's leave the past as it is.
If you get along with your friends and teachers again, you'll always be able to meet them.
From now on, the most important thing is for you to face the goals in front of you firmly.
And please pass the exam.

There are probably many paths you can aim for in the future.
Please be very lost and worried.
Your thoughts may be different from time to time, but in the end, your own will is the final decision.
Nonetheless, there will be tests there too, so let's do our best.
Find your own answers by asking your own questions about your doubts and worries firmly,
And please do your best.

Focus on what is right in front of you without looking back on the past, take a break when you're tired, rest your mind,
And please try again.

I sincerely pray that your future will open up brightly from now on.
Please do your best! I'm rooting for you!

Think about what you need right now

I read it.
You're thinking about so many different things.

First, you're doing what you need to do right now.
I also went to an art prep school, and my future plans are solid.
However, I felt that the “future design” itself was struggling.

It says that I wasn't able to go to high school because I became truant in junior high school, but that is an excuse because I'm sorry to lose.
Because I don't want to get hurt.
That's why they are putting up a foreshadowing for when they fail saying “I don't know if ~ can be done.”
I felt the same was true for my friends.

It's time to think about what you need.
Going on to college, a friend, or something else?
If you pass the entrance exam, you can always graduate from a university.

Thoughts such as “I might quit” are out of the question.
Any university is fine, because that is a relationship.
Ronin only concentrates on passing, and if that is not possible, you can quit being a ronin and do something else.

What does happiness mean to you? Please think carefully.
I hope they don't throw out the present using future design as an excuse.

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