I don't know the value of my life.

Recently, I've started to want to die a lot.

Until before, everyday school life was fun, and I never wanted to die even if things didn't go well.

Recently, however, I have doubts about living well.

I think I'm blessed with my family, and there are many people I can call my friends. However, I feel that my way of life is very meaningless.

I'm not good at making an effort. It makes me think I don't want to make an effort and fail. I also hate making my own choices and taking responsibility.

I know it's a really sweet idea, but I always run away from tough choices in an attempt to live an easy life right away.

Other people are making an effort and living responsibly, yet they just run away, and they are disgusted with themselves.

I can't help but feel like there's no point in my life, even if I live my half-hearted self.

Because if you're alive, there will definitely come a time when you think “I'm glad I'm alive.” I can't believe that word.

Being able to feel good about being alive is just an emotion that people who have made an effort can feel, and I don't think I can think that way if I avoid making an effort.

From the perspective of people around me, it may be just a matter of making an effort, but I'm really afraid of making an effort and failing.

Is there anything that makes me think I'm glad that my sweet-minded self continues to live and live in the future? It's tough being alive.

3 Zen Responses

Once-in-a-lifetime

Go on a trip before you really die.
Go all over Japan, and if possible, go abroad.

Also, meet lots of people.
Go to various places and see all kinds of people.

Come enjoy something called [Once in a Lifetime].

Even if it went that far, there were no discoveries at all,
That time is that time (laughs)

The road of a thousand miles also starts from one step

Guchimaru-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

There is no meaning, value, or reason for living as an entity that can be decided and said “this is it,” and it is due to various causal relationships (causes and conditions), and furthermore, they are “confident” in each case.

And it definitely doesn't mean “nothing.” However, it depends on cause and effect, and it depends on good intentions. According to a good causal relationship, it means that if you are good at a good meaning, value, reason, and yourself, that will be the case.

Also, there are worldly results, and in terms of Buddhism, there are worldly results, and after all, good results in worldly things are usually only temporary or joyful, and rather than that, I would like to recommend aiming for the ultimate thing of enlightenment and nirvana as a good Buddhist result.

Well, in any case, rather than doing nothing, you can't hope for good results unless you strive for a good causal relationship by making an effort little by little. You don't suddenly make tough choices, you don't want heights all of a sudden; you first take a close look at your feet and do what you can, step by step. The road of a thousand miles also starts from one step.

Anything is fine. Studying, hobbies, sports, cooking...

I feel like I'm increasing what I can do one by one without effort or hesitation...

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Expand your horizons

Just being alive, you'll encounter things that you think are good. No effort required, no problem. Everyone wants to have fun, that's fine. I've always thought so too... Some of the people who are working hard actually succeeded, did amazing things, and many others are moved to learn about it!! But you have to be alive to know it. Nobody knows tomorrow, but those who are alive tomorrow can know tomorrow. Only living people can know the future. It's worth living just looking at what kind of future there is. Something amazing might happen tomorrow, isn't it? I wonder if it can be transmitted?

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