What does living mean
I work as an office worker,
I've been strong since I was little, and I've always been complacent since I was in middle school due to interpersonal fears, feelings of inferiority, etc. To be honest, it's still hard to live now. And when I think about when I get old, get sick, and die, I have no choice but to hate life.
Historically, humans have probably suffered tyranny, aggression, unreasonable suffering from war, hunger, poverty, natural disasters, disease epidemics, etc., and then died.
And in today's capitalist society, the strong win, and the weak are sacrificed. What is wealth? material wealth? Is it just peace of mind?
You can't choose your birth, your appearance, your talents, and your environment are all unreasonable.
No matter how big or small your worries are, life is overwhelmingly unreasonable.
Also, if they exist only to leave genes as simple organisms, why do humans have a high level of consciousness? I don't believe in God, but I don't want to think it's simply a product of natural selection.
I want to think that life has meaning. I want to accept the hopelessness that in order to live, I have to cover my eyes on painful things, accumulate self-deception, and live as a prisoner connected to a prison called society
It's not there, but I can't help but accept it.
What kind of life can be called the right way to live?
Will you live as a prisoner or face the freedom of death
Sorry for being incoherent, but please give me some hints for living.