I want to die

Sakuyasama
Nice to meet you, my name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.

You blame yourself, don't like it, and feel like you want to die.

If you can't study, doesn't that mean there's a possibility you'll be able to do it?
Having more friends doesn't mean the better.

The reason you put a burden on your parents and lie because you don't like it is because you are a kind person.
I think being kind is more important than anything else as a human being.

I don't know the details, but I want you not to die.
I would be sad if you died.

There are probably no children in this world who grow up the way their parents want, from 0 to 100. ^_^

You can worry about it. Sometimes it's okay to spoil a lot. Because they are parents and children, there are many things they are allowed to do.

Not everyone lives for their parents. If you live by looking at your parents' faces, it will be gone in your life. You live your whole life with your body.

Don't blame yourself for no reason. There's no point in blaming. If you think you've done something bad, you can usually say “I'm sorry.”

I, too, have caused trouble to my parents.

When I was a student, I was naughty, caused problems, didn't go to school, and made me cry a lot.

Right now, there are only things I feel sorry for.

There are things I understand now that I'm a parent.

On the contrary, what you do for children is something you are happy about.

But it's wonderful that you can think that far right now.

I'm dumb, and I don't have understanding, memory, or patience. Smart people don't understand the sadness and pain of being dumb. I've been told, “I don't know why I don't understand.”
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My days were full of lies.
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I'm lazy and 48 years old now. Even if I am this kind of person, I enjoyed happiness like everyone else in love and marriage, and I also learned about the loneliness of “old age,” so I think it's okay to die at any time.
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How about you too? Isn't it okay to fall in love like anyone else, get married, and then die after being able to understand the feelings of the elderly just a little bit?
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People won't be genuinely sad when you die. Rather, someone might laugh. That's the truth.
then it's not worth dying for. that would be annoying, wouldn't it?
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It is futile for people to live because they are sad.
Let's live for ourselves.

Good morning.

Do you still hear my words?

The world you look around may not be on your side,

Hasunoha is a nice place to live.
At least the boys here are on Sakuya's side.

Not to move forward, it's a place where you can stop without worrying about your parents, relatives, or neighborhood.

In the sutras
You can't say you're enlightened in a world where there are people who get lost. I can't carry the Buddha sign on my back.
There is such an oath.

The Buddha said that everyone was in pain,
In order to overcome that suffering, I think the monks here have also gone through a shambles they can't tell people.

Maybe I'm the only one around Sakuya who says bad things,
My power alone is tiny, but including the other monks I've written here,
I would appreciate it if you could feel that there are people who are worried about you.

Parents feel worse when their children die than when they die themselves.

And I continue to regret not being able to save my child for the rest of my life.

Your death could be the same thing as killing your parents.

Worrying as a parent is something you can only do because you have children.

Worrying is a form of filial piety.

If possible, confess your feelings to your parents and try hugging them.
I'm not happy enough to have my child confess my worries to my parents.

The kid told me his worries... I feel really happy.

When kids have a hard time with something
Being able to snuggle up to their children and cry together is the happiest thing for parents.

Good things will always happen when you're alive.

I was also a single parent, had few friends at your age, and was dumb.
I was bullied even worse, and there were days when I thought it might be better to die.

But that kind of frustration became energy
I think it has led me to the job I love now.

So now, on the contrary, I think I was even thankful for that situation in the old days.

I'm sure there will be good things for you too if you're alive.

Do you want to die? You don't like yourself, do you?
But people do change.
Minds change.
You were told in your previous consultation that you would like to go on to college.
You can go anywhere, even in college, but in a new place where there are people who don't know who you were in the past, there is a possibility that you too can become your new you.

You're not always the same.
Even if you can't go on to college, for example, you can try a part-time job in a place far away or post a silly video on the internet. (I don't mind if nobody sees it.)
I'm sure you'll meet a new you in a new place.
You can live a carefree life without taking it too seriously.
There is always a happy ending at the end of life.
Please say Namu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu with your mouth.
When you finally die, Amitabha Buddha will pick you up from the Pure Land of Paradise, so be sure to think of your life as a happy ending.
That's why life along the way is fine.
Note, if the desire to die continues for a long time, there is a possibility of a brain or nerve disorder such as “depression.”
If it's because the machine called the brain and nerves is not working well, why not see a doctor so that the brain and nerves can be improved somehow?

It's painful, isn't it? It's really hard. It was really hard until I understood how to move my mind.
People's words don't come in.
Even the words of respectable people.
I fell by leaps and blows, didn't I?
What I did there was step up the courage to accept myself as 0 points, which I had thought was around 20 points.
That made my heart feel strangely at ease.
Maybe all the decorations have been removed.
It was good to know that what I cherished was more like a pride I didn't want to lose than my life. I was able to correctly recognize that life is more important.
Once I had thrown away everything other than my life, I felt a tremendous amount of energy.
At that time, I wanted to change this way of thinking, thinking, and perception.
At that time, when I fell to the point where humans would fall, I really felt like learning.
I want to learn the truth, not Buddhism or anything.
No one is in a more difficult environment than you. That's why the ability for you to support others will be born from now on. If I finally really want to die, I can die anytime.
Before that, let's have a little more conversation with a living person without sharing our own thoughts.
It doesn't matter if you come to my house. If you have enough enthusiasm to die for, let's really get serious and face life. I'm also a person who lives to this day thinking I'm about to die, so I might be able to help. It's fine to play today. I'm making someone carry flowers. Tomorrow isn't going to be rock bottom. If you lose everything, it becomes like a lucky bag where everything comes in.
Please call me whenever it becomes difficult.
0802065 9278 Till Tange