Anyway, I want to die.

Have you run out of energy? That's a pity.
I want to hug you in my clothes.

If the desire to die persists for a long time, there is a possibility of “depression.”
Please talk to a psychosomatic medicine practitioner or counselor.
When you become “depressed,” it seems that there are cases where people think that even what is actually possible is “determined not to be possible” or “determined to be unreasonable.”
You should be able to go to the hospital even if you're busy.
I'll be able to manage it.
If “I can't do it” or “I can't do it” may come to mind, please keep a distance from your own emotions and think about it.

I tried to think about solutions to my problems from my profile.
I think I'm a little too tied to my family.
I don't think there's anyone who can be kind to you.
First of all, please have 3, or even 2 days, when you don't do anything. Even a day is fine.
If you are willing to die, you can ask at home or at a temple near you.
It doesn't matter if it's a phone call.
You should reset your mind once and for all.
No matter how close a family is, if the distance is too close, they are burdened with responsibilities and swallowed up.
Even I sometimes get scared when I'm with my parents 24 hours a day.
What you need is for others, including your family, to disappear from your heart for a while.
No matter who you are with, if you worry about that person in your heart and have someone to deal with in your heart all the time, it will be depressing. Even couples who love each other can be tormented by that person if they don't keep a good distance.
Once again, please build a new sense of distance, a new sense of distance with your beloved family.
That is the path of becoming a monk while being involved with a modern family.
It's not about becoming a monk.
It means you won't be tied to your home.
“House” in monasticism is a word that symbolizes the rules of a house, family values, human rules within oneself, and human self.
Even just a moment is fine, so why don't you get away from your “home” and regain your calm self before you act fast? You don't have to be bound by family rules that much.

I think there are things that are very difficult when you try to do everything alone. If you continue every day, even if it's your husband or parent, it becomes physically difficult. Create even a small amount of free time for yourself with various help. You need time to break free from everything.

You may be able to get a good hint if you go to a welfare-related place such as the city hall for advice. Please rely on people as much as possible. Please take it easy. It's not a bad thing.