I hate myself...

Good evening.
I read your question.

If you don't change the way you have a kind heart for your best friend, you can leave it as it is.
What should be changed is how much effort is applied?

In love counseling, I think there are cases where you really want advice and there are cases where you simply want someone to listen to it.
If it's a serious consultation, I'd like to help, but if it's half bad, only one person will have a happy aura at full throttle! I mean,
I think I'm jealous too.

However, in the long run, there is a possibility that you will be in the opposite position.
When Nayu-san has a boyfriend, it's sad that she doesn't listen to me, so I think I should listen to her in moderation.

Even though it makes you feel excited, I'll help your best friend when they're sad or hurt.
Of course, the opposite may also be the case.
I don't just think my friends are cheating; they're just like each other. If you can change your mind, I think you don't have to hate yourself.

It's hard to understand myself.
I know only a small part.
I almost always notice things while getting involved with people.
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You're still in your second year of high school, aren't you? You don't even know what's good about yourself, so don't decide that you don't like your jealous self.
You still don't have to deny those feelings right now.
don't worry about it.
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Come back when you're a little older.

I think I want him too. But it's not your friend's fault. It's probably not your personality either.

I'm just comparing myself to the people around me. Don't be fooled by Christmas features on TV, magazines, etc. Everyone is danced by such information, and they have an impatient feeling that “we have to do it together with everyone.” However, it is probably one of today's dangerous thoughts. Many people end up suffering because they are being deceived that they are Makoto due to information such as television.

The truth is, people and myself are different people. It's never going to be the same. In order to rejoice in the happiness of others, it's something you can't do without peace of mind. It doesn't mean that you don't compare, and even if your boyfriend doesn't, that's not unfortunate. Once you understand such things, you can naturally be kind to people.

When you seem to be jealous no matter what, it might be easy if you say “I envy you too much.”

Rather than being envious of that friend,
It would be better to think again that it would be sad that that friend wouldn't turn his feelings towards me.
It's also a good idea to try conveying the feeling of “I'm lonely” to the light.
There are times when hesitation clears up when feelings for the other person are used in accurate words.
It's sad that the number of times you meet friends you used to be best friends with decreases, isn't it?
She doesn't belong to anyone else either. It's good that I played with you. It's good that you got a boyfriend too. Why don't you act a little bit more than you think?