I can't live like a human being. I can't control my greed.

Good evening.
I saw this site on the internet, and while being rude, I wrote it because I wanted to ask a question.

Please, could you teach me how to live?
I'm just a person who can't control myself.

I was raised by a father and mother who were like children since childhood, and since I was an ignorant and timid person, I had little relationships with people, and lived until this age with a lot of childhood and immaturity.
Because of that, I don't like even accepting myself like that.

I can't even accept the world's reaction to my immaturity.
“Why do I have to feel this way since I was a kid?”
I can't get rid of that thought.
Therefore, they also dislike effort.
For example, I feel like I'm being thrown out saying, “Now make an effort,” no matter how many appropriate arrangements have been made.

There are times when I thought that shouldn't be the case.
I've also found myself in a relatively tough workplace.
Even so, it becomes corrupt.
They run away from the position of being an “unusable human.”
And I don't like that position.
However, they don't have the guts to stand up from there, nor the strength to endure it.

They will escape by any means.
I've tried to stand up many times, but the results are the same.
I don't feel the point of going to counseling anymore, and I don't have any money to go.
Right now, I'm living alone. Financially, I pushed myself forward.
However, they escaped. I'm currently unemployed.

Understanding doesn't keep up with instincts.
Reason doesn't play a role.
More than that, I don't like the situation where I'm treated as an “unusable human being,” scolded, and have to make an effort, and it's unbearable.

When I was young, I sometimes thought people were important. Relatively speaking, my grandmother was also a favorite person.
However, when I became a member of society, I realized it.
Why do we need to love others when we feel this way?
Why do only I have to feel this kind of patience and effort so painful?

From there, my humble life began.
It's easy to betray people now, and there's no consistency in how we like people in the first place.
I can't afford it.

Is there any way for me to live like this?
Fear and siblings are the only reasons we don't die anymore.
That is relatively irrelevant now.

4 Zen Responses

Let's be honest

I read it.

There are only negative words lined up, but the best thing is to like yourself and fall in love with others
Isn't this a shortcut to recovery?

If you only use negative words, you'll get more and more anxious. A heart of mercy (jihi)
Please take good care of it.

The answer is within me

I saw your question.

You were questioned about your way of life.
Also, I don't know if you've noticed, but words that can be the “answer” are also arranged in the question.

You're probably worried about your future right now. However, you know yourself very well.
There are a lot of things that don't go the way you want them to, but let's take out just one of them and solve it.

No one can solve all of their faults at the same time. Everyone has the same problems as you. (Not shown in the table...)

Recently, everyone is doing a program called Muscle Exercises at 23:50 in the middle of the night on NHK. At the end of that program, the phrase “muscles don't betray” comes up. While doing muscle exercises, I thought that was true.
You can build muscle by making an effort.
Muscles don't betray you mean that if you make an effort, you'll always get results.
You don't seem to like situations where you have to make an effort. I'm not good at it either.
Why don't you train your body once here?
You probably have time, so train your body every day by doing push-ups, sit-ups, back exercises, squats, and jogging.
If you do that, I think my ability to make an effort will gradually increase, and I think I will be able to spare my physical strength the next time I work.
Even if you can run away from your parents or workplace, you can't run away from yourself, so be sure to face yourself. Let's say it to our reflection in the mirror. My body is sagging! and.

appending
10 kilos every morning! I was dumbfounded.
You're someone who can make an effort.
It may just be that anxiety about not being able to meet the expectations of those around them makes them choose to run away.
Certainly, the depths of the heart may not be easy to change.
Even so, in Buddhism, the mind and body are one.
So, let's get back to our muscles once again. If you train, you'll definitely gain muscle.
Similarly, if you keep working even if you don't meet your expectations, then before you know it, you'll be able to meet expectations, and I think that's something like that.

Buddhist practices

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Greed is something that cannot be easily suppressed.

Therefore, it is necessary to take measures to curb greed.

In Buddhism, there are things such as understanding the issues of greed and distress well, observing precepts (rules), and working on ascetic practices so that greed can be suppressed.

Also, Buddhism can be useful in order to live a better life.

Therefore, it is also recommended that you can officially start practicing Buddhism as a resident Buddhist believer.

Please consider it.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

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