My husband rejected my incoming call, and I'm in pain.

I know my husband, who is currently separated, works, but I have no idea what he thinks or does, especially outside of his holidays and work.
Of course, I don't know the details when it comes to salary, and there are no remittances at all.

My husband temporarily lived with me at my parents' house and worked locally, but since I grew up in Tokyo, I didn't get used to country life, and I didn't drive, so I wanted to go back to Tokyo, so I got a job at a temporary staffing agency alone from April.

Separation was not what I wanted, and the frustration that comes from menopause and the stress that comes from living with my real mother exploded in dissatisfaction and complaints for Natsuo.

I finally realized that kind of thing after the call was rejected, but even though it was too late and I reflected on everything up until now, including various things that had happened in the long time since he became depressed, and I wrote a letter saying I wanted to apologize, there was no reply from my husband.

Precisely because I realized it, I wanted to change the lives of the two of them in a better direction from now on, and I wanted to discuss many things I couldn't do until now in a different direction, but my husband completely ignored them.

But on the other hand, if the refusal of incoming calls lasts any longer, it is scary that in the unlikely event that Kazuo contacts me, I will reject incoming calls this time.

Previously, when my husband was looking for a job, I was overseas for a long time, so I was in trouble because I had no place to transfer my certificate of residence, so I used the address of my parents' house. Also, I have said that the circumstances of being a married person and having a family are advantageous for employment.

You are free to use all the money you earn yourself, and you are free to spend your days off. Eat, drink, and imagine again, but no one notices that people can play as much as they like due to customs, or even if they have an affair.

I think this is the most fulfilling time for my husband, who is able to leave his unthrown luggage at my parents' house for free, and who says it is more convenient to continue his marriage with me.

Is my current state a time of retaliation for not being caring enough for my husband who was sick with childcare as the top priority?
Since there is a reality of refusing incoming calls, I am suffering because I cannot trust my husband or my future as a married couple.

What kind of way of thinking should my husband and I live every day to be happy?

Please help.