How should I deal with the feeling of emptiness?
I read everyone's questions and answers, and I'm always studying a lot.
This time, I was wondering if you could teach me how to deal with my own feelings, so I would like to discuss it with you.
I think I'm living a very fulfilling life.
I am grateful that I was given the work I wanted to do, that I am healthy, blessed with my family, and that I am able to spend my time without any inconvenience.
I don't have the feeling of being greedy and hoping for more than what I am now, and I am grateful to the people around me and my ancestors that I am here now.
But sometimes, really unexpectedly, “emptiness” is born in the mind.
There are times when legs that have been walking without any problems until then suddenly stop moving, and “emptiness” appears in the mind, and people are caught up in it.
When that happens, everything feels backwards, I feel uneasy about whether my existence is meaningful, and I'm at a loss while standing still.
Why am I who I am?
Why are you here?
I wonder what they're living for.
These are the only questions that go round and round in my head.
It makes me want to throw everything out.
At the end of the day, I give up thinking about it.
Then, I feel that kind of fear, as if the inside of me has become empty.
Are there any hints for facing that kind of heart in the monk's ascetic practices or in the Buddha's teachings?
I'm sorry for this very vague question, but I have also been bothered many times by the vague emptiness of unknown cause.
If there is anything helpful, such as how to deal with an empty heart that you think is empty, or how to deal with yourself like that, please let me know.
Thank you for your support.
