Was my action wrong?

Please respect the feelings of the person who wrote it.
I don't think you should include your subjectivity.
I think the person who wrote it also understood enough to write it.
Please listen to that person's last wish.

I'm sorry to hear that you are in a difficult place.
In recent years, wills have gained great power, and so have their effects
It has become a big one.
However, if you don't read that line space, if you don't have a true will,
I think it's a little riddle.

The words written by the mother are heavy, aren't they?

However, for that reason, my feelings for my older brother were also undeniable,
Because they are affectionate, their opposite hand hurts the mother a tremendous amount
I think they've made me lose it,

If the thoughts I want to convey to my older brother are between those lines,
The one who can decipher it is probably that there is no one else except the older brother
I also think so.

What does Koi Nazo say to Mr. Suga
In the same way, Koi's grandmother wrote a will for her own daughter (this is my aunt)
That's because it was just like the questioner.

I gave it to my aunt at home.
That's because I thought there was nothing better than this, my grandmother's “love” as a mother.
That's because I felt that it was a deep love that wasn't directed at us.
Of course, I don't think everything is the same as the questioner.

I don't think your judgment was wrong.
The reason I put a draft for your older brother in your envelope
Maybe a “keep it” message
That's because I felt like that.
As an elementary student, I think it's better to leave it to my husband
I think so,
Now is just like my mother's life right now is peaceful,
Above all else, there is a place where everyone in the family can pray together
Your seat is here.

I'm praying too.

First, I think it would be a good idea to ask your mother if it's okay for her to read it during her lifetime and have her reconcile.
Personally, I don't think you should interrupt your husband's mother's intentions even after death.
Mothers in the world sometimes deal with children in various forms, but no matter what form it is, it is an education called a wish for children to “be like this.”
If you hide it and your older brother can't see it, your older brother, who has a slightly accurate problem, may continue to live a lifestyle contrary to selfish and selfish = Buddhists for the rest of his life.
An old teacher I know continued to be scolded by Mimodo, saying “I'm worried about what you're going to do” even after 80.
It may feel radical from your point of view, but I think you can think of it as an education unique to that family.
The siblings are also nice adults to each other. If I were in the position of a mother, I think I would leave teachings that would serve as admonition even after death for my disrespectful son who acts violently against his parents.
At first, you may only feel that it is toxic or irritating, but there is always a chance that it will change to medicine someday. That is the birth of a sense of religion. An older brother probably has something that stings in his own way. Parents can't choose their children. Kids can't choose their parents either.
If they can't choose either, shouldn't they each seek better humanity?
My parents will die one day. The life of Ama-chan as a child left behind continues.
What parents leave behind at the end of their lives should be taken as a message to take good care of their children.
Seen from a grouper's point of view, it seems like nothing but strange communication, fights, and grudges, but surely that is the way the house works. In any case, it's up to you to decide, not you.

Mika Mama-sama
My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an. I will take a look at your questions and thanks, and write a few thoughts.

It's the part where my brother-in-law visits me on a daily basis, but do you have a feeling that your brother-in-law used to be unfaithful? Or were they affectionate, and sometimes it came out in the wrong way?
In any case, I felt that there was a relationship between my mother-in-law and brother-in-law that wasn't just expressed in words.

Another thing that bothers me is the letter to my sister-in-law. It's sealed, so I don't think you know what's inside, but is it written “Your husband (brother-in-law) is such a terrible man,” “I wrote something to blame, but please support him,” or is there something completely different written on it? Either way, I'm very concerned about my sister-in-law's letter.

Mikama-san had a lot of trust from her mother-in-law, didn't she? But that put us in such a difficult situation. The mother-in-law herself wrote it so as not to leave her thoughts behind, but she may have anticipated that Mikama-san would take care of her as it currently is.

There may be times when you hand over a letter and regret it.
There may also be regrets that come from not handing over a letter.
The first thing to do is listen to her true intentions even a little while you can talk to your mother-in-law. There may be a change in the relationship between you and your brother-in-law, who you see every day.

Either way, I think it's better not to hold them alone.

＜Read the reply dated 1/25＞
Mikama-san and her older brother were able to talk, and I wonder if there was even a slight change between the mother and older brother. There is a saying “talk with your heart broken,” but dialogue is still important, isn't it?
We hope that family ties will be even deeper.

＜Added on 2/2＞
I would like to express my sincere condolences in response to the news of my mother's passing.

Along with that, I came into contact with the last emotional exchange between my mother and older brother, and I felt that Mikama-san and we, the monks, ended up going right and left on the Buddha's palm. But I think that going right and left was also meaningful.
Gassho