I've killed an animal.

Kou-san
Hello, my name is Tanjin-in Butler Yamaguchi.
No matter how painful it is, the past cannot be erased. What do you want to do now! Just when I think, “I did a stupid thing. I'm sorry. If you have a feeling of “I'm sorry,” I think it would be better to repent for killing them at a nearby temple or a temple you know and make a memorial service for animals. Also, there may be a way for them to put their hands together while they are buried. Once you've done it, it's not over; I think it's important to keep going until your feelings calm down.
In fact, even meat traders and fishery traders who have no choice but to kill, also have a memorial service once a year.

I guess my rules are strong. Throw away your pre-set expectations for the rest of your life.
If you do that, stabilizers can also graduate. Your ego, convenience, and my rules are the foundation of your mind that nurtures stress, anger, and emotions.
There are no people who kill because they really want to kill, and there are no people who cause accidents because they want to cause accidents.
Sin is sin, but there must have been a reason why you were angry too.
Hardship, anger from raising children, feelings of isolation, feeling of not being taken care of.
It exploded and hit the dog, didn't it? Both are a pity.
But if you keep blaming people, you won't improve or be saved.
Happiness is not something you look for in people; it is only when you can prepare soil for your own rice paddies that you can make good rice. How about getting a puppy again to improve your humanity?
Also, I think there have been various failures. Each time, you have the merit of looking at your own “Tokyo Consciousness.” There are many inconveniences that arise in raising animals.
I'm sure kids will bully dogs too. Something is wrong for you.
At times like that, say “no good!” When you get emotionally angry, it's like you're saying you're facing your own sins, but in the end, what you're doing remains at the same level.
Every one of your ways of doing things, whether you own them or not. That has led to everything. People who write characters wildly also act violently. The attitude is also violent.
Please take a look at the characters you write and how to wash dishes one by one.
Expressions and attitudes expressed in myself being hit by a dog, myself being a child, anger directed at my husband, and raising children. There's no need to improve them one by one. The root, the root of the heart. sexual root. It starts with preparing the soil for the field of the heart that becomes Nekkoto, right?
To do that, first, let's be a good person, a real human being! It reminds me of...
If you make mistakes and keep making them, you won't grow anything.
But with this incident, you're trying to change something.
You should aim for ambition. Humans commit crimes and that is not the end of it.
You can make amends.

Kō-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

At this time, first of all, that feeling of reform is more important than anything else. There is no such thing as a saint gentleman who is perfect right from the start. Every human being, no matter how big or small, always makes a few mistakes.

The problem is that even if you make a mistake, you are required to repent from the bottom of your heart and reflect on it from the bottom of your heart and not repeat the same mistake again by being “ashamed.” Regarding “shame,” we are also dealing with the following questions.

The question “How do I get out of my feelings of regret?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/225

I'm already ashamed enough this time, so I hope you can forgive yourself a little bit.

Also, if possible, I hope you can hold a memorial service for that dog. The thoughts of the memorial service were directed to that dog, and I hope you will be at peace, have a good career, and move towards enlightenment and nirvana.

I have given a humble answer about animal memorial services in the following question before.

The question “did I kill him?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/128

Question “About animals”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/170

As for memorial services, it is good to consult with a monk, recite sutras officially recite sutras on your own, but of course, if you want to recite sutras yourself, yes, Bato Kannon, who is said to save and guide animals, so that you can receive the power of Bato Kannon, for example, the Heart Sutra, Daijishindani Sutra, Hokkei Fumonpin 25 (Kannon Sutra), Juku Kannon, etc. with the power of Kannon, please save the dog May you, Enlightenment Nirvana I think it would be good to turn around and say so that you can lead me to it.

Maybe... in order for stress not to turn into child abuse, Kannon appeared as that dog and took his place to protect me...

I will hold a memorial service with feelings for that dog in front of the Plant, Tree, Animal, and Animal Sagan Memorial Tower at Tsuketsu Temple.

I pray that it will ease your mind a little bit.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Kousama
My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an. Thank you for your support.

It says “I killed” my father-in-law's dog 10 years ago. And they have a strong sense of guilt, and they are still suffering now.
I don't know the details of the situation at that time, but I was tormented by a strong sense of regret, and I think it was really painful.

At my parents' house, there was a Chihuahua who became part of the family a year before I was born. I lived a long time, but when I was in high school, I became blurry, and it cried all the time in the middle of the night. The Chihuahua's cage was in front of my room.

I couldn't sleep because of that cry, and it hit the cage very hard, hitting and yelling at me. If I think about it now, they may have stopped screaming if I took them out of their cage and put them in the same futon.

That chihuahua died when I was 16 years old. I cried the whole time and regretted that I should have loved them even more.
Even now, over 20 years later, I still remember it from time to time. Also, they continue to teach me “the importance of weak and small lives,” and they also continue to teach me that “I have a nature that treats weak and small lives coldly.”

Kō-san.
Situations where you drink stabilizers are not desirable, are you? Maybe the cause of the suffering is that they drove the dog to death and not confide in the person they should confide in.
Why don't you put your hands together for your dog first and say words of repentance to the person you should confide in if possible?

I hope you find it helpful.