This is my second question.
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When I thought about the meaning of living, the meaning of being alive, and the meaning of being kept alive, I felt a fear I had never experienced in my life.
Why don't you think together about why you think it's scary?
In Buddhism, the ego is considered an illusion.
“I” is nothing more than a symbol without conceptual substance.
It's my “self” without substance, but if you get attached to it and try to protect it, it becomes scary.
Stress is caused by everyone being obsessed with an illusory “self” without substance, such as not wanting to get hurt, not wanting to fail, or being ridiculed.
It's like a “rabbit horn,” and even if you can imagine it in words, it doesn't really exist.
That is “self.”
Actually, the energy waves produced by the cells are a new “me” every moment.
For example, yesterday's failed “I” is just a shadow of someone else left behind in stored data.
Why don't you think that you don't have to protect your “self” or “me,” that you should do what you can to the extent possible, and that no matter how others criticize you against it, yesterday's “self” that was criticized is no longer there today, so why don't you feel fine?
I read it.
Well, let's think about it together.
There are various things such as living, dying, and being born again, or working, interacting with people, and having conversations.
Among them, there is also anxiety, fear, sadness, joy, fun, and emotion.
There will be many sleepless nights from now on because of that.
I want to experience it through my own experiences, learn firsthand, and go through trial and error.
If you don't mind, please keep sharing your thoughts here.
Let's think and learn together.
I sincerely pray that you will learn and grow healthily through various encounters and relationships in the future.
“I felt fear that I had never experienced in my life.”
“Why do you think it's scary?”
It's probably because I'm really afraid of [death].
If they were to die the way they are now...
Fear of losing the joy of being alive...
Fear of not being able to fulfill the responsibilities of being kept alive...
The fear that comes from anxiety that the other side of death is unknown...
Whether you cry or cry, death will come to everyone at some point.
Now, what should I do to live a tree with peace of mind and anxiety?
You're thinking about the meaning of life, aren't you? And if you do that, you get scared, right?
There are no answers that can be given by others to the question of the meaning of life. You must find the meaning of your life for yourself.
For example, the meaning of a baseball player playing baseball can be considered from the audience side or from an economic point of view, and from various angles, but for the baseball player himself, it can only be proven when the person himself actually plays baseball. Why do they play baseball? I can't get an answer even if I think about it.
Similarly, it's very important to think about the meaning of life, but it's rare to find something just by thinking about it. I think we can only discover something in the course of life.
However, once they have grasped what they have found as an “answer,” people are now bound by that answer. You will begin to judge yourself and others based on values that fit or don't fit that answer.
Furthermore, in terms of Buddhism, people are also robbed of that “answer” before the truth that “all acts are impermanent (nothing changes).”
For example, the “answer” that I'm living for “this,” such as a mother's child or an artist's work, gives me irreplaceable hope for anything, but at the same time, the “answer” is a double-edged sword that brings fear/anxiety about losing it and hopelessness when actually lost.
Furthermore, there is a hard fact that no matter what I find as the meaning of life, I myself, the person who discovers it, will die someday.
At that time, people may simply stand helplessly in front of the question “Why do we live when we die anyway?”
But that's why people sought religion there. Only religion can surpass “death.” Death cannot be proven by science, so it cannot be surpassed. It is only through religion that people can surpass death.
It's not about forcibly believing something and escaping into a world of delusions and notions. This is probably something that can only be demonstrated in actual religious prayers.
There is no answer to the question of the meaning of life, but it may be said that they are looking for something beyond death.
I've answered a lot of questions about this question in the past. Please be sure to read it.
https://hasunoha.jp/questions/42108